Saturday, October 14, 2006
3:19 PM
i juz read wj's blog... always sorta of knew or had an impression of the kind of person she is, the ambitions she had and the way she deals with stuff. bt somehow, reading thru the few entries tad chanced upon had filled me up with respect 4 her, both as a person and as a future doctor. i admire her 4 her 2 courage to fulfill her dreams, to fight 4 her opprtunities, 2 do the things tad i noe i've wanted to do at some pt in my life, bt had nvr had the opportunities n the courage to fight 4 them. true, wad she has done may haf come at a cost, friends, family... we'll nvr noe, bt if at the end, tads realli wad she thinks her purpose in life is, i say go on, let ur dreams fly high. i see a streak of me in her tad i've nvr had the chance 2 devleop. i think my close frens n family noe how i may want 2 travel the world n wrk as a volunteer doc at less developed ctries in future. i noe how i've always wanted 2 help. how i always look at disaster victims and aid teams n wish i was there. this is where i realise how inferior i m. tok is cheap. acty gettn down 2 doing it is nt easy. unlike wj, i've nvr even tried contacting authorities n stuff. now's nt the time, i'm still young, there'll b chances in future... it's easy 2 give excuses 4 urself, bt it takes a whole lot more courage, belief and hard wrk 2 realli get down 2 taking ur dreams a step further and wrk 2wards achieving them. furthemore, i haf nvr wrked up the courage 2 completely dump my comfort zone n b out there all alone, in a foreign land, with foreign pple, undeveloped facilities, doing wad i believe in... plus, my parents will prob rather kill me den 2 agree to it... therefore, wj, even though i noe we differ drastically in terms of personality, religions, ideas and attitudes, i salute u 4 wad u do n wad u dare to achieve and wish u all the best if u do make it 2 india at the end of the year. =p
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Thursday, October 12, 2006
3:00 PM
hahz, im sorta using my illness as an excuse to skip everyth possible dis wk. think i realli nd the rest. feel so much more relaxed den last wk, which was hell. guess tads y i fell sick. i skipped pbl 2dae, nt much pt gg since i noe i'll juz b falling aslp in front of the tutor. hahz. still haven come 2 a decison yet abt hallplay. coz once i pull out, there's definitely no chance of me stayin here nxt year liaoz. cfrm nt enough pts. den again i can always consider pgp. guess some pple will probably nt uds y im even thinking of staying a second year. bt den seriously rite, once u get used 2 it, the convenience n freedom is sth u wunt feel like giving up. bt pgp is suppose 2 b even smaller n im realli comfortable in this particular rm liaoz. hahz. so i dunno how. later even if i wrk my heart out 4 hallplay oso nt enough pt den super waste time oso. shit lah, when u r doing things tad u r nt thoroughly enjoying, u start 2 become very practical. hee!
aniwae, was reading my dna notes while eating lunch while watching this medical series on tv. dunt even noe wad it's called, think it's quite long ago one. think dealing with patients' and their families disappointments' gonna b one of the most difficult aspects of my job nxt time... yar, n it's amazing how stimes realli small n simple things r the ones that can realli make u happy. =p
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
2:58 PM
seeing that even geraldine had made the effort 2 revive her blog, decided to make an attempt to do so b4 i lose all those pple who acty diligently try 2 keep up with my life. aniwae, haven blogges in abt 2mths already, n even den my last blog entry was nt realli sth i came up with. hahz. sch's crazy, guess mebbe im trying 2 do too much in too little time. plus there's a neverending amt of knowledge 2 b absorbed in med sch. it's realli crazy. currently in a rather sick state. went 2 the doc ystd, he said i had tonsilitis. (inflammation of the tonsils caused by bacteria...), so im having a very painful throat plus recurrent fever frm the infection. nt so bad now, ystd i gt a shock when i saw my body temp shoot 2 39.0C. thank gosh it went down in the nite. guess it's my body's way of telling me 2 take a rest. haven realli slowed down my pace at all since sch started. cept like the first 2 wks or so when hall activities hasnt started... yar, so in the end i didnt go sch ystd. nt completerly recovered yet, bt thot i better go sch 2dae otherwise i'll haf alot of things 2 catch up on esp since they r starting on the big chap- heart!!
im realli torn btw wanting 2 make my uni life a fulfilling one and wanting to haf time n space 2 myself and the pple arnd me, to do the things i want to do. i want 2 go back 2 the times in the first 2 wks where i can meet frens in town 4 lunch, hang arnd my frens rm watching stupid videos at nite. even blogging seems a luxury now. sigh... thinking of pulling out of hallplay acty. think it's realli tough trying 2 balance tad against the yunnan trip meetings as well as the other hall activities. plus the countless number of readings tad i haf... n i'll definitely choose my ocip over hallplay anytime. at least i click with the pple there more n haf more fun. =p dunno lah. if i want 2 pull out i hafta decide fast, otherwise it'll b very irresponsible. bt i still cant make up my mind...
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`