Wednesday, June 28, 2006
10:36 AM
in case u r wonderin y i'm home at this time n a wkday 2 blog, it's coz i juz had my stupid wisdom teeth extracted ystd. yar, teeth, plural. didnt wanna think too much abt it ystd nite so decided i shall leave the topic untouched until 2dae despite the fact tad i did update my blog ystd. aniwae, had my surgery apptment at 3pm, went in abt 3.15pm, was out at like 3.35pm! fast rite!! the surgeon say it was one of the smoothest surgery he went thru coz i had like absolute zero complaints at all. it's like pple will wince when the inject anesthetic or sth, den wriggle arnd n stuff. hahz, den he said that he likes to do surgery on doctors n nurses coz they usu noe wad u r doing, so they wunt like scream or anyth. but den again, i think it's juz a matter of ctrlling ur emotions. hahz, i may seem bloody calm on the surface, bt was super ganjiong in my mind one lor. guess i was gd at puttin on a calm front, so much so that the surgeon said i seem 2 b enjoying the surgery more den he was. aniwae, the thing is, that was the initial part at the ndc.
everyth turned to hell when i reach home man. once the anesthetic started wearing off, the pain was crazy lor. eat painkillers oso still can feel abit lor. some more the stupid painkillers supposed 2 b bloody strong, muz eat after food, n still muz eat another medicine 2 protect my stomach lining frm it. sounds scary rite? den its like my surgery was at 3plus, den at like 9plus, blood was still flowing out frm the wound lor. freak lah! dunno how much blood i swallowed over the 6hrs man, even though i was biting on a gauze most of the time. so the whole of ystd's nite was crazy. had 2 wake up 2 take my medication lah, den the pain was makin it difficult 2 slp, den cannt press on the wound some more. kns. so i'm still in a pretty stony mood now.
here's my teeth!! the bottom one was taken out in 2 pieces by the surgeon, so altogether gt 3 pieces. i tell u lor, the sound of the drill is bloody scary. it realli sounds like ur industrial drill lor. yikes!!
im now like on mc all the way until fri, but seriously unless the swellin goes down, i'm not gg 2 step out of the hse lor. so ugly!! den the nurse say usu swellin 3-7 days. freak lah! i hope mine is the 3days kind. hahz.
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
6:00 PM
finally gt time 2 blog. let's c, wad did i do over the wkend? went ecp with the fsc peeps. mf, jen, me, geradine, shahri n david. honestly, we didnt much cept eat n walk arnd. hahaz, walked like siaoz lor. played abit of stupid games with the poker cards, den went cycling in the morning. it's the first time i ever ever rode on a 2 person bike b4. think it's the same 4 most of the rest bahz. quite fun.
dunt haf the grp foto though!! tads with jen n she's like far far away in hk nnow. hope she's havin fun. aniwae, after going home at abt 1pm on sat frm ecp, slept 4 abt 3hrs b4 meetin geraldine 2 go jj concert on sat nite. it's super super cool lor. he's realli damn gd. geraldine keep saying his live no diff frm cd, not even abit off-pitch lor. damn freakin seh. n he's realli super cute. i wldnt say he's gd-lookin, but he juz gt the boy nxt door kind of feel. den he sang alot of songs, yet still didnt manage 2 cover allll the songs tad i like, hahz. can u imagine zhou hua jian concert muz sing how long. jj 4 albums onli leh. hahaz. aniwae, quite glad i went even though it cost a big hole in my bank acct. we sat in the supposed vip area which is the most ex tics place, den juz 5 rows behind the fan club, which had priority bking i think. aniwae, juz wanted 2 say, it was damn cool.
can c our very bad eyebags? still sufferin frm lack of slp at the ecp the nite b4. hahz. budden my eyes now still liddat, coz mon nite stayed up 2 watch england match even though gotta wrk the nxt day. at least england won, hee! nvr waste my efforts 2 stay up n watch. bt quite a quiet match though the goal was pretty enough. =p lookin 4ward 2 their nxt match!
ok tads it lah, those peeps tad want the rest of the photos, do try 2 catch me online.
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Sunday, June 25, 2006
9:30 PM
quite some time since my last post liaoz. wkend was quite hectic, so no time 2 blog until now. went ecp on fri nite, den jj concert on sat nite. hahaz, high rite. shall blog abt it when i figure out how 2 transfer the pics frm my hp 2 the comp. 4 now, juz take a look at lyrics, hahz. currently my fav song now. frm tanya's newest album
Beautiful Love 蔡健雅
看住时间 别让它在再流浪
从前我太适应悲伤
你的出现在无意中 却深深撼动我
一起走着没说什么 心是满足的
这个世界 随时都要崩塌
我没有其它的愿望
假如明天将消失了 趁现在我爱着
只想记得 被你抱着 温热的感受
Love's beautiful so beautiful
我失去过 更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我 被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手 不要放手 永远守护我
Love's beautiful so beautiful
我很快乐 你会了解我
我不会再哭泣 是因为我相信
我们勇敢的爱着 每秒钟 都能证明一生的美丽
这个世界 随时都要崩塌
我没有其它的愿望
假如明天将消失了 趁现在我爱着
只想记得,被你抱着 温热的感受
Love's beautiful so beautiful
我失去过 更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我 被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手 不要放手 永远守护我
Love's beautiful so beautiful
我失去过 更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我 被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手 不要放手 永远守护我
Love's beautiful so beautiful
我很快乐 你会了解我
我不会再哭泣 是因为我相信
我们勇敢的爱着 每秒钟 都能证明一生的美丽
Love's beautiful so beautiful
gt chance muz go listen, it's realli very nice. suppose 2 make u appreciate wad u haf. aniwae, waitin 4 england match 2nite. hope they get thru it. but my eyes already startin 2 feel tired lor. hope i dunt fall aslp halfway thru. muz b the effects of lack of slp the previous 2 nites. hee!
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Monday, June 19, 2006
9:49 PM
juz some random facts i discovered...
- fisherman's friend is made in england
- giordano is acty the name of a famous pizza parlor in US
- bravissimo, the ice cream brand at tangs n outside far east, has the same name as a lingerie brand in the UK
- the office gets too freakin cold on a rainy day...
can tell how bored i m in the office?
had a great wkend. did alot of things, had alot of fun. pretty busy i think. bt nt much of such chances once sch starts. oh, n i MUZ mention this. wad is my affinity with pple hu r late man. hahz, no offense 2 those readin this, i'm past being angry abt it, nt tad petty. it's juz tad frm last thur on, almost everyone i arranged 2 meet was late. first was pool at downtown east, den was dinner on fri with jing li n shir, den was lunch with hq on sun. hahz. pretty amazing, how they all coincidentally late 4 at least 25mins when meetin me this wk. heng i'm nt the type hu will scream n walk off. hahz, at most nag abit onli. nxt time dunt liddat hor. if nt poor me always hafta wonder arnd whike waitin... =p
did alot of reminiscing this wk, coz met up with jingli n shir n den hq on another day. amazing how everyone's all grown up. n i think our social circle overlap like siao. keep hearin things like so n so is so n so's bf or gf. hahaz. it's nice 2 noe how everyone's been doing since we left tns. think some pple changed alot, but some r still the gd ol' frens tad i always noe them as. seems like being realli smart when u r young, realli doesnt mean u'll continue 2 do well in life after tad. sad fact of life. oh, n i heard joseph is like this super romantic guy now. knew he was the kind hu'll do anyth 4 the gal he likes, bt nvr expected he'll go 2 such extents. hahz, apparently on some anniversary he gt all his scout frens 2 help him lay n unveal sth on the beach, den on his gf bdae, he planned this arnd the whole spore thing that eventually ended with the gals prez or sth along the lines of tad. seriously lah, tads like sth u'll onli c in tv shows lor. hahz, sweet rite.
speakin of which, i'm reminded of eve's sudden craving 2 go mt faber sit cable car. 2dae in the office she keep sayin she wanna go c c. apparently view suppose 2 b very nice. but upon second thots, we 2 go up 4 wad. it's too romantic an activity lor. hahaz. but cld b quite nice juz 4 the experience acty...
went 2 c the dentist on fri. in the end, he say coz all 4 of my wisdom teeth haf grown above my jawbone, it's most advisable 2 take ALL 4 out. freak lah. pain sia. den he advise me 2 take out 2 at one go instead of all 4, otherwise hafta inject 8 needles... siala. now i hafta go thru the pain twice some more. 2 b honest, i'm scared lor. i noe it's like a super minor surgery, n 2 think i'm gonna b a doc nxt time. bt seriously, it feels very different standing frm patient pov. although super minor, but i so old liaoz, nvr walk in2 surgery rm b4 leh. den when dentist tellin me all the risks blah blah tad he HAS to tell me, suddenly feel abit scary, although it's realli juz 2 teeth extraction... guess i'll b drinking porridge 4 the most of nxt wk... hahz.
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Saturday, June 17, 2006
7:31 PM
havin a splittin headache 4 some strange reason or another now. thot lack of slp den will headache? i juz woke up frm afternoon nap lehz. hmmmz... strange.
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
10:24 PM
was doodling on some postcards in the office today. jen took them back frm the canteen when she went 2 get some stuff 2 wake us up, hahz. cant really rmb when companies started usin free postcards 2 advertise their prdts. think it was when i was in pri sch... i rmb how we use 2 scribble stuff n write msges on it 2 encourage each other durin exam times n stuff, or how we pass it arnd durin class time, writing abt the latest gossip n keeping each other frm fallin aslp. oh yar, n all the times with wangek in the lib, writing nonsense juz 2 pass time. miss those times. seems like the older u get, the less often u express ur care n concern 4 ur frens, even if its onli over a small little postcard…
juz submitted my hostel application online. hahaz, kindda pushin it abit late, i noe. honestly still in abit of a dilemma as 2 whether or nt 2 stay there. saves me travellin time. but haiz, haf 2 spend time socialisin, someth tad I’m becoming more n more lazy 2 do. although im startin 2 miss sch life, the vibrancy of it, the never-ending bustle of activity, at the same time, im filled with a lot of uncertainty. hahz, so lazy 2 expand my social circle… can u imagine this is coming frm the very same person, whom 2 years ago refuse 2 choose vj simply coz there’ll b too many familiar faces, coz i wanted a change of envt? hahz, where did that anticipation n energy go?
aniwae, haf reached the pt when im startin 2 look back on this long break n wonder wad haf i been doing. now i wanna do a lot of things!! wanna make this long break a memorable one b4 sch starts instead of realisin that i simply wrked it away at the end of everyth. all 4 the money that suddenly didn’t seem tad impt anymore. (hahz, but den again, i've already used so much of it, cant say it wasn’t of any use, hee!) havin all these weird cravins 2 do particular activities everyday, hahz. quite amusing acty. coz ystd i told jen i suddenly really feel like playin pool. den 2dae durin lunch time, i suddenly really feel like havin a game of basketball!! pool still nt so bad, bball how 2 find so many pple 2 play with me?!? sounds abit looney i noe. wonder wad will it b tmr. hahz.
there’s so may things i wanna do! do u noe there’s a toy museum in Singapore? i wanna c! do u noe there’s a restaurant at Stamford hse tad sells all sorts of authentic jap curry? i wanna try!! when was the last time i went 2 sentosa, or even the zoo! hahz, could b fun, u noe. when was the last time i went cyclin by the beach, or roller-blading or ice-skating? when was the last time i played a game of badminton or volleyball with my squadmates or classmates? when i end my job in july, i am so gonna drag all of u out 2 play, hahz. i hope i realli do it n nt end up slackin arnd, doing nth, when the time comes. hee!
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
9:24 PM
i finally finally changed my hp!! hee!! haven realli gt down 2 figuring how 2 use it yet though, hahz!
life's realli a drag nowadays... i literally pull myself out of bed n drag my feet in2 the office everyday. n time realli CRAWLS in there. haiz. thankfully, it's all gonna b over soon. peeps, muz ask me out 2 haf fun over july kz? i end wrk by then liaoz. muz play like siao b4 hell starts all over again!!
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it's a sad fact of life that everyone has his/ her own share of problems no matter how strong a front they put on in front of others... i juz read ur blog... didnt manage 2 catch u online, (i gt wait hor) so hope u will c dis... sorrie i asked y u were movin without thinkin... sorrie i wasnt too sensitive abt things... hope it didnt make u think of unhappy things. aniwae, i guess everyth happens 4 a reason. n obstacles r wad makes a person stronger. time has washed away the hurt for many others n i hope it will 4 u too... jiayou! ring me up 4 a meal, a movie, a run, anything, anytime u feel like it. hope that as a fren, i will always bring a smile 2 ur face! take care! =p
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=lin=
P.S. dunno if she'll c dis, but jas, gd luck 4 ur exams!!
you make my life perfect-`
saw this on a fren's nick...
'love is giving someone the power to destroy you'
rather apt considering wads been happening arnd me... wad do u guyz feel?
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Sunday, June 11, 2006
10:55 PM
can tell i very bored rite. when haf ur ever seen me blog 4 times in one day?!?! wanted 2 post the lyrics of this song up 4 quite some time liaoz. it's realli nice. one of my fav song 4 now.
《一个像夏天 一个像秋天〉〉 范玮琪
第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天 一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我被你掏出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后 生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你 我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句
如果不是你 我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的玄外之音 我的有口无心
我离不开 darling 更离不开你
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我被你掏出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后 生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你 我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句
如果不是你 我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的玄外之音 我的有口无心
我离不开 darling 更离不开你
你了解我所有得意的东西
还常泼我冷水 怕我忘记
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形象保密
如果不是你 我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句
如果不是你 我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的玄外之音 我的有口无心
我离不开 darling 更离不开你
juz watched the netherlands match. they were pretty gd in the first half. like this kind of match. fast paced!! but robben take all the limelight liaoz, hahz. he like one person= whole team lor. c him everywhere. wad happened 2 pple like van nistelrooy? hahz.
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
had a nice chat with jas juz now. wonder if i will feel the same way as she does if i had chosen to go london... out there, all alone lor. at least she has him lah. hahz. aniwae, tads besides the point already since i've already chosen another path. aniwae, i juz received my reply frm the mha ystd. they haf agreed to waive my 1000 buckz. =p yayz! at least i did wad little i could to lighten my parents load of sendin me thru medical sch. dunno y some pple seem to think that juz because im willin 2 pay the 1000 buckz 2 pursue my dream, they think i'm a rich kid. i'm not lor. hate it when pple look at me eyes that say 'whoah, rich lor, can do anyth she want'. dunno wads wrong with these pple, like i had a choice liddat. honestly, i noe very well tad puttin me thru med sch sure strain family finances one lor. where to suddenly find an extra 17000 a year suddenly, in addition to payin 4 my sis' poly sch fees. even cpf oso dunt haf so much money lor. so i cfrm take loan one. take loan nxt time oso muz pay back. haiz, muz pay very long some more. den paediatrics so difficult 2 get in some more. sigh, suddenly filled with so much apprehension lor. it's gonna b a long long journey...
in a super stone mode today. mebbe it's the pouring rain, i dunno... juz feel very empty, very lost, mind very blank. mebbe it's all the pent up uncertainty regarding loads of things. in the end, i read bk oso read a few pges onli. watch vcd oso watch half heartedly. online oso nt much pple to tok to... haiz. sad life sia.
aniwae, gd job eve! cant believe she gt 90 for the quiz lor. even my own sister gt 70 onli lor. amazing sia. 2 b honest, i noe i will sure cry if u n milly go overseas. sure miss u one lor. but dunt let this affect ur decision. hahz.
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
i like the feelin of drizzling rain fallin down on me...
refreshin...
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Seems like this is what everyone's doing now... was eating my instant noodles (my dinner!!!) in front of the comp, nth to do, so created one. do it if u r free! =p stupid rain lor, kept me in the house the whole day. heng i gt my bk.
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Saturday, June 10, 2006
11:25 PM
it's such a pity that things had to turn out this way. didnt expect it. think it has become realli messy. think in r/ships, there's never a right or wrong, n when a r/ship sours, the blame prob falls on both persons. although frm a gals pov, it's difficult for 2 uds how he can bounce back so fast in2 another r/ship, but often, matters of the heart r nt 4 outsiders to judge... haiz.
juz bought a bk today. called 'perfect match' by jodi picoult. dunno if any of ur heard of her b4. in case ur r thinkin it's a romance novel or sth, judging by the title, it's not! i DUNT read romance novels. it's abt this lawyer n her kid. it's the kind of bks that i read lah. a bit heavy on the struggle btw wads right n wrong in life. abt society n perceptions. along the lines of torey hayden's one child. tell ur more when i'm done with it. =p bought another photo album oso. was packin my fotos today, den realised that the old one's used up. need another one juz to put my genting n taiwan fotos i think. it's that crazy. hahz. mebbe oso coz i usu dunt cram my photos together. hahz. shall spend tmr piecing the rest of the fotos in2 it.
my long long long break's coming to an end soon. less den 2 mths time. still gt alot of things i wanna do!!
1. watch more movies. hahaz. the amt of movies i watch this year is honestly incomparable to j1 i think. to think i'm on long break some more. =p
2. go to the beach. i wanna spend a day in the sun. playin basketball, volleyball, cycling, wadsoever. need to inject some life in2 myself.
3. finish up my comics.
4. read more bks.
5. go shopping.
6. watch more vcds.
7. realli pack up my cupboard.
8. develop all my fotos n acty arrange them in2 my albums lor.
9. do all the mundane mundane stuff that i might nt haf so much free time to do in future.
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Thursday, June 08, 2006
9:46 PM
TAGGED by Becky
Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. dont read the questions before you write, and tag 5 pple to do this survey.
1. Geraldine
2. Jennifer
3. Becky
4. Evelyn
5. Yuyi
6. RQ
7. Eileen
8. Milly
9. Qiuting
10. Shahri
11. David
12. Cairong
13. Jasmine
14. Gawin
15. Manfred
16. Eugene
17. Jaslyn
18. He Qian
19. Weihong
20. Eric
How did you meet 14? [Gawin] hahaz, at the fsc lor. 2years ago...
What would you do if you never met 1? [Geraldine] guess my life wld nvr b the same. come to think of it, there realli was a chance that we might nvr haf met due 2 our birthdates. but i cant imagine that now. hahz. no one to jog with me, crap with me, mug with me. hahaz.
What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? [Eric n Qiuting] hahahahaz. this is damn funny. realli cant imagine. aniwae, dunt think eric's qiuting's type of guy. hahz. what wld i do ahz, laugh lor. den give them my blessings. hee!
Did you ever like 19? [Weihong] i guess so, as a fren thru my sec sch years, n i still do now. hope we get a chance 2 meet up sometime. last time i saw him was after nus openhse, which was quite some time ago...
Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? [RQ n Jaslyn] er... i dunt think so. both of them r happily taken aniwae. hee! =p
Describe 3. [Becky] a realli bubbly gal. a super gd fren who has stood by me all these years no matter how low i get. thnx gal!! can always count on her to make my day when i need it. =p
Do you think 8 is attractive? [Milly] think so. she gt a lot of tao hua yun one. hahaz. very cute gal lah. milly treasure hor. first time i say u cute, nt act cute! hahz!
Tell me something about 7. [Eileen] one of my closest frens in jc. realli hyper most of the time. gt contagious laughter! nvr fail to cheer up at the sight of her! =p
Do you know any of 12's family? [Cairong] er, nopeZ!
What's 8's favourite? [Milly] favourite what? man ah? hahaz, zhang dong jian!!
What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you? [David] hmmmz, i wldnt noe. shocked??? 4 now, he's a realli nice fren though. hahz.
What language does 15 speak? [Manfred] english and chinese. dunno if he noes anyth else. muz ask jen nxt time. hahz.
Who is 9 going out with? [Qiuting] hahaz, no one i think. otherwise, we'll kill her. hahaz, 4 nt tellin us.
How old is 16 now? [Eugene] 21 years old!!
When was the last time you talked to 13? [Jasmine] hmmmzz, 2days ago? over sms. hahaz.
Who's 2 favourite band/singer? [Jennifer] nt sure leh, jay chou i think... either that or she doesnt haf one. i hope... hahz.
Would you date 4? [Evelyn] think we always go on dates wad. no meh. hahaz.
Would you date 7? [Eileen] another one that i often go on dates with oso. hahz, along with the other gals in class.
Is 15 single? [Manfred] hahz, nope. of coz nt!!
What's 10's last name? [Shahri] er gosh, this muz b the hardest question... honestly, i dunno, issit ur dad's name? is tad considered a last name?
Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11? [David] as of now, cant imagine it. hahaz. in serious frenship bahz. hee! =p
What school does 3 go to? [Becky] some uni in canada. nt realli sure wads the name though, west sth sth sth... sorrie!
Where does 6 live? [RQ] somewhere along tanjong rhu...
Whats your favourite thing about 5? [Yuyi] her determination n wry sense of humour. hahz! haven seen her in a real long time though!!
I tag Geraldine, Chyork, Yehlin, David and Jennifer. Do it if ur r free bahz! =p
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
11:53 PM
alot of thots, alot of feelins, loads of reflection, all swirling arnd in my head now. dunno how 2 pen them down. took me quite long to finish up the TAG, so now abit too late, nt realli in the rite state of mind 2 express myself choherently. esp not abt the matter's i want to tok abt... startin 2 feel abit stressed, alot of things 2 settle, n alot of things to think abt... mebbe i'll tok more abt it tmr...
quite excited abt fri's dinner. think like everyone's turnin up. full strength sia. quite rare. to a certain extent, it's sorta like a conclusion to triple e bahz, in case all of us realli leave in the few mths to come. muz take lotsa lotsa fotos. will realli miss all the fun n stupid times tad we have had when the time comes...
that's all 4 now...
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
TAGGED by geraldine
AWESOME PEOPLE I WOULD WANT TO MEET
1. hmmmz, nt sure leh, that SPECIAL someone? hahaz!
2. dunno if this counts, meet up with my pri sch frens!! quite some time since i last saw them. wld b nice 2 c how's everyone doing.
3. my paternal grandfather who died when i was realli young. apparently he pampered me like crazy. n my likes very similar 2 him. hahz.
4. Mayday? aiyoh dunno lah. very difficult leh!!
THINGS I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT
1. my handphone?
2. my computer/ the internet
3. the tv/ my vcds
4. chocolates
5. water!! (n perhaps air too!)
I WISH I COULD
1. become a paediatrician
2. tour the world
3. get a chance to try my hands at becoming a volunteer doc nxt time. honest! always thot they r super wei da. hahz.
4. grow taller
5. lose some weight?
I WANT
1. to succeed in life.
2. to not haf regrets.
3. a new hp
4. to always haf my frens by my side... i noe it's difficult as u grow older... it's a wish, nevertheless.
5. everyone to be happy n healthy
SONGS I THINK ARE AWESOME
1. aiyoh, how 2 choose?!?! i listen 2 so many songs!! currently at the top of my list is fanfan's new song, yi ge xiang xia tian, yi ge xiang qiu tian.
2. intuition, by soler
3. sheng bian, in the 'it started with a kiss' ost
4. mayday's songs
5. jj lin's songs, hahz. this 2 r currently my fav singer/band!! hee! =p
HOW I SEE MYSELF IN 10 YEARS
1. hopefully a full fledged paediartician by then.
2. hopefully successful.
3. hopefully b able to make a diff 2 my patients' lives... =p
4. hopefully found that someone that makes a diff in my life.
RANDOM FACTS
1. i picked up roller blading n ice skating since young.
2. i realli wanna learn archery n tennis.
3. i'm 19 this year.
4. i'm a girl.
5. i think i'm a pretty loud person. hahz. =p
MISCONCEPTIONS
1. i'm a very fierce person.
2. i'm unfriendly? some pple say i gt dao look...
3. i come frm a gals sch. truth is, i've nvr been to a gals sch. hahz.
4. i'm very studious. acty i dun think so. i believe in wrkin hard n playin hard!! i can b quite crazy when i start playin. n i haf skipped lectures/ pon sch b4 4 no reason. hahz.
5. i dunt haf probs... nt true hor!! everyone has issues. juz coz i'm optimistic abt stuff doesnt mean i dunt worry abt them!! hahz, i juz dunt show it tads all!!
I TAG
1. Becky
2. Eric
3. Jennifer
4. He Qian
5. TNS Gals
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
10:35 PM
read this article in straits times life ystd while stoning in btw wrk. hahz, juz wonder how true the article acty is. wonder how many guyz realli think the same way. aniwae, the article is titled: Alpha Women are Darn Sexy. interesting article...
excerpts from it:
"i am a big fan of the alpha female. and after speaking to friends, i realise i am not alone... i think anyone who shows triats such as confidence, leadership qualities, intelligence and determination can be considered leader of her pack (alpha female)"
"when i asked some of my friends, most agreed that, looks being equal, an alpha female would truimph over her average peer every time. it's the confidence that is the most attractive..."
"i have met many women who are at the top of their game in finance, politics, sports and theatre. and often, i find their success makes them even more appealing as individuals, as their life experiences add depth to their personalities."
"men are more open to the idea of women who are their equals or superiors, and are not that hung up anymore on having to be the providers."
i wonder how much these apply to the general male population here. guyz, leave a tag if u haf any comments abt this, hahz.
but some reason or another, i still feel that wad the author wrote still does not apply to most of the guyz in singapore. as mentioned by this female in the article, "gender stereotypes aside, sometimes intelligent women just simply overwhelm men. ego is a big factor and i think most guys cant deal with a woman who knows or earns more than they do." somehow, i think this is more true, hee. tell me if im wrong.
=lin=
P.S. would i b considered an alpha female?
you make my life perfect-`
Monday, June 05, 2006
10:50 PM
world cup coming!!! so excited. ystd gt the pull out guide in straits times. wonder if anione is interested in gg 2 one of the clubs to watch one of the matches. will b so high rite, the atmosphere n the crowd!! hahaz. think 4 the rest of the mth, i will b panda at wrk liaoz. esp when haf england matches the nite b4. hee! =p
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Sunday, June 04, 2006
11:40 PM
went kite-flyin with g & j, m & j today. freak lah, dunno y me n geraldine go oso. freakin extra. think the activity in itself is too lang man already. hahz, shld haf learnt frm cr, stay at home watch vcd. at first thot of cr n david gg den nt so bad, still gt 4 of us, in the end left me n geraldine, so we entertain ourself lor. acty kite-flyin is nt that bad an idea, juz tad nxt time if nt big big grp dunt ask me hor. oh, n me n geraldine came to this conclusion, if the outing, single pple nt more den attached one rite, oso no need ask us, hahz. feel stupid lor. aniwae, they happy can liaoz lah. cant imagine if geraldine had crazily agreed to go watch xmen with them, hahz, pengz!! the feelin is u nt there, u wunt noe one lor. hahaz.
in the end, my highlight of the day is daytona at the arcade. so long nvr play lioaz, suddenly seem so fun lor. hahaz. played 3times altogether. think the initial d one realli damn nice. its tougher, but feel more shuang. aniwae, eventually me n mok left them there to eat their marina steamboat den we went back gd ol' tamp eat hans. hahz. chit chat abit den end up shoppin again. shit lah, the gss is killin my wallet as well as my bank acct. cant even bear to calculate. n its nt like some of things i bought r even on sale lor. it's the shopping bug. hahaz. muz ctrl. still wanna buy my jacket n birks n hp. haiz. no money, how? thinkin of gg to topshop to buy the skirt durin one of their midnite sales. hahz, high lor, the midnite sales, so many pple at marina square at 11plus ystd sia. den the giordano person screaming like mad lor. even nike on sale leh, can u imagine? n these r the shops that r hardly ever on sale lor. hahz, okay, im startin to sound crazy. muz spare some thot 4 my wallet, practice self ctrl!! =p
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`
Thursday, June 01, 2006
8:43 PM
im suddenly feelin very overwhelmed... very filled with gloom. i dunno..., it's juz very saddening to suddenly realise how emotional fragile or how stressed n unhappy some of ur frens can be under the cheerful facade that they put on in front of others. suddenly feel so useless. it's as if they dunt feel rite in influencing ur feelins by showing theirs... im kindda rambling, but it's abit tough to put wad i feel un2 words. i realli want to help, but somehow i guess its not realli up to me if they dunt even wanna show me they haf probs... i've been thru tough times b4 too. i noe how it feels to haf to put on a front in front of others, i noe wad it feels to b suddenly cautious of urself, i noe wad it feels 2 need all the support that u can get, that shoulder to cry on... mebbe thats y it realli upsets me to realise a fren is in the position... =(
was tokkin alot 2 evelyn todae. tokkin abt all the stuff that happened over the 2 years in jc... so many misunderstandings, so many politics, so many... i dunno. somehow alot of pple always feel that the sch is a protected environment... in some schs, mebbe. but i wonder if its juz me, but i seriously feel that the better the sch, the smarter the pple there, the higher they climb, the more u c pple for wad they r. it's juz a mini reflection of the society on the whole. the fight for credit, for power... in lib exco, in the class, in pw, blah blah. it's sad tad the supposed elite of the ctry turns out this way, but it's true... i been thru huge ups n downs over these 2 years, seen the best n worst of pple, which realli opened up my eyes n made me grow up... but i guess nobody realli knew wad was happening other den a few close frens, n even den i nvr cried in front of them... there was even less of a chance that i wld haf shown anyth to my parents... tads my personality, hahz. stubborn? i dunno. i was brought up as a veri independent child, mebbe tads y i always felt it was my resposibility to solve my problems. or perhaps its the strongheadedness in me, the 'im supposed to b strong, so i shall nt fall' kind of mentality. which i guess is oso the reason y when i do break down n cry, its hard to stop, hahz. aniwae, the thing is, like evelyn said, i'm quite glad that things turned out the way it did, otherwise i might haf brought along with me a lot of regrets n perhaps hatred for things n pple along with me frm jc...
i juz read jacq's blog... she said she's quitting triple e. i realli think it's a pity. y did things turn out this way... the start pt of the entire thing seemed realli harmless n innocent. a simple r/ship... turned this way. i think she's a gd teacher, she realli puts her heart into teachin her kids, perhaps more so den ani of us there. it's honestly a pity if she leaves. some more, with so many of us leavin, i cant even bear to imagine wad will happen to triple e. i'm starting to worry... i noe it sounds selfish to get her 2 stay simply coz the rest r leavin, esp if the place realli bring her painful n unhappy memories, but it i kindda feel that if she realli likes wad she do there, mebbe she shld stay. use the happy times to wash away memories of the unhappy ones...
haiz, it's when i c situations liddat that makes me feel that mebbe singlehood is beta after all. mebbe it's coz i haven met someone hu makes me wanna risk all the unhappiness n step in2 a rship... im the kind that will think of the breakup even before the being together starts. hahz, paranoid? mebbe. i've said no a few times b4, everytime someone gets too close, i start to push them away. scared? i dunno... the last time i fell 4 someone, i fell hard. it wasnt easy to snap out of it i think. mebbe tads y. it's nt that i dowan a shoulder to lean on, it's nt that i dunt need someone there when im down n out, it's juz that i dowan the possibility of the pain n heartbreak... i think im either mad or too idealistic. perhaps for now, frens r truly enough... where's that someone that will make me lose my sense of logic again...
=lin=
P.S. im so so so glad that i haf frens like mok, jen, eve n gang, n nt 2 4gt, becca n rq, whose always there no matter wad happens... =p
you make my life perfect-`