Sunday, June 11, 2006
10:33 PM
had a nice chat with jas juz now. wonder if i will feel the same way as she does if i had chosen to go london... out there, all alone lor. at least she has him lah. hahz. aniwae, tads besides the point already since i've already chosen another path. aniwae, i juz received my reply frm the mha ystd. they haf agreed to waive my 1000 buckz. =p yayz! at least i did wad little i could to lighten my parents load of sendin me thru medical sch. dunno y some pple seem to think that juz because im willin 2 pay the 1000 buckz 2 pursue my dream, they think i'm a rich kid. i'm not lor. hate it when pple look at me eyes that say 'whoah, rich lor, can do anyth she want'. dunno wads wrong with these pple, like i had a choice liddat. honestly, i noe very well tad puttin me thru med sch sure strain family finances one lor. where to suddenly find an extra 17000 a year suddenly, in addition to payin 4 my sis' poly sch fees. even cpf oso dunt haf so much money lor. so i cfrm take loan one. take loan nxt time oso muz pay back. haiz, muz pay very long some more. den paediatrics so difficult 2 get in some more. sigh, suddenly filled with so much apprehension lor. it's gonna b a long long journey...
in a super stone mode today. mebbe it's the pouring rain, i dunno... juz feel very empty, very lost, mind very blank. mebbe it's all the pent up uncertainty regarding loads of things. in the end, i read bk oso read a few pges onli. watch vcd oso watch half heartedly. online oso nt much pple to tok to... haiz. sad life sia.
aniwae, gd job eve! cant believe she gt 90 for the quiz lor. even my own sister gt 70 onli lor. amazing sia. 2 b honest, i noe i will sure cry if u n milly go overseas. sure miss u one lor. but dunt let this affect ur decision. hahz.
=lin=
you make my life perfect-`