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Sunday, May 07, 2006
9:26 PM

it's realli pretty amazing how long it took me to post sth here. if u look at the date of my previous post, which was the day i set up this blog, its 3weeks ago. n i onli typed sth there so that i can c the template... hahz. i muz either b one lazy or realli busy person sia. its probably the former.

alot's happening at this pt of my life now, nt juz me, but the frens arnd me as well... frens with r/ship problems, frens hu haf juz gotten in2 a r/ship, frens deciding to go aust to do med, frens hu r already preparing 4 their mugging life overseas, frens hu r tryin to decide whether which course to take, which sch to go to. it's the time of the life where everyone's makin choices, choices tad affect the rest of their life... it's stressful i think. 4 me, everything's hanging on a thin thread. the thread that holds my dream to become a doctor. it's realli dicturbing at times when pple arnd u r discussing wad they shld do with their future, n i suddenly realise with a sinkin feelin that my future's nt realli 4 me to decide at this pt in time... haiz... the nxt 2 wks will b the crucial pt in the rest of my life. it decides wad my future holds 4 me. so far i've hardly been able to get thru a day without thinkin abt how much i want 2 get in2 med sch at least once. it's crazy, bt like i said, its sth tads nt 4 me to decide animore. hahz, guess tads y i didnt feel like gg home that day after my interview. didnt like the sense of finality abt it. it's as if the rest of my life was decided n finalised on that day... haiz, shld nt think so much abt it, i will 越陷越深。

finally gt some excercise 2dae, after like 2 wks lor. went cycling at pasir ris beach... i like cycling n the beach, always make me feel like im nt in singapore. hahz. dunno y oso. think coz singapore too urbanised, so like the feel of seeing the sea n the sand instead of buildings. =p been busy the previous coz of fsc meetins n numerous tuition sessions coz the kid is having his mid-years soon. as a result, there went my resolution to go running after wrk. muz realli keep my own promise nxt wk. thinkin of stoppin tuition after his mid-years, gettin realli sian of it. seriously, the onli thing that's keepin me gg is the money, so 没有良心 rite? hahz. coz its like either i go med sch which will b realli busi or i go london which means i wunt b in spore. den its like if i tell him stop in sep den very bad coz nearin his final exams. dunno leh, abit cant stand pple hu dunt wanna wrk hard themselves. its like i can teach u every wk. can think if questions n wrkshts 4 u 2 do. bt wads the pt if u r nt gg 2 take the effort to do ur part n rmb ur wrk well. lidddat no pt every wk i go there n nag at u 2 memo ur formulas, ur units, ur definitions... all these is need to make effort urself one, nt i can memo 4 him one. abit 看不下去， or dunno its 看不过去。 after all his parents spend money every mth 2 employ me, so he shld at least make the effort rite...

becky's bdae is a few days away. tryin to think of a way to make it special. after all she's gg to canada soon, i wunt get 2 celebrate it with her 4 the nxt 3 years at least. hope everyth goes well 4 her there.

=lin=

you make my life perfect-`