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Monday, May 22, 2006
10:59 AM

cant believe it took me 2 days to come here n blog abt it... but den again, i'm nt realli one hu blogs often. too lazy... hahaz. aniwae, yupz, my dream came true. abit dunno how 2 describe my feelings when i knew... very complicated... hahz. it's super roller coaster sia. barely 12 hrs after i was lamenting to shahri n jacq abt nt knowing if i'll get in, i chcked my status online and gt the result that i wanted. when qiuting told me on fri nite that can chck the nxt morning online, can hardly fall aslp that nite lor. den nxt morning when i woke up, first thing i did was switch on the computer n go online. honestly, i haven even wash my face n brush my teeth yet lor. hahaz. tad was how ganjiong i was. i dunno chck the webbie how many times to make sure it was my name written there lor. even resorted to log out den log in again to confirm b4 i went to tell my mum. okay, i admit, i cried when reality sunk in. hahz, dunno how 2 explain the feeling oso, think onli those hu want 2 get in2 med, dentistry, law that kind den will uds bahz. it's how badly u want it... some more b4 i chck super roller coaster lor. the moment i came online, lee kai told me he didnt get it, den my lil confidence shrunk by half, den later i cannt find my pin number, nearly turn my table upside down lor. realised alot of pple i thot will get in didnt in the end. so thankful that immediately went to huan shen the nxt day lor. =p now i oso dunno hu i noe will b my classmates... aniwae, congrats to qiuting 4 getting in2 dentistry as well!! =p

i kindda uds her dilemma bahz. no matter how much u want sth, no matter how much u feel tad thats the career path, when faced with such an inviting option, it's nt easy not to be moved. i went thru it as well... even though u look at how happy i m now 2 gain admission in2 med, but when mha offered me the scholarship, i once considered giving up med to study overseas. i realli desire takin time off frm the lifestyle in spore, learning to live by myself overseas, gaining exposure n seeing things frm another pov. furthermore, the lack of a need to worry abt finances is also very tempting. some more, there's always this, how shld i put it, more materialistic n showy side of me that keeps reminding me of how glam it is to b a govt scholar n how my career path in future will prob b smoother den most pple. a degree frm internationally recognised LSE will b more den sufficient to secure my future, n i dunt even hafta slog for 5 years for it... sounds super inviting rite? it's difficult not to be moved, but i guess at the end of the day, it's realli down to what kind of life u want in future, what kind of a role do u envision urself to b playin in the society in future. once u think it thru n firmly decide wad u want, den u prob wunt haf regrets in future. tads y even though now i muz pay the mha 1000 buckz, i mus take on a huge study loan frm the bank, i giving up my chance to experience life in london, no more chance of watchin epl matches life, no making frens n being classmates with pple frm all over the world, but i'm contented. life's abt making choices, u gain some, u lose some. i'm now one more step closer to my dream of becoming a paediatrician n i'm happy the way things turned out. =p

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p.s. thnx eugene, shahri 4 offerin ur frens help, thnx auntie norin 4 ur letter of recommendation, thnx everyone else for all your encouragement n confidence in me!! =p

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