watashi no omoyide

2007-12-11T14:02:00.000+08:00

geez, my last post was 9mths ago. almost a year man. just realised that it's the time of the year for reflections and thanksgiving again! i love year-ends. it's the time to say byebye to all the unhappiness and tough times u've had over the year n hopefully start the new year on a better and more hopeful note. =p at the same time. year-ends are the time for xmas! not tad i massively celebrate it or anyth, but i just like the feel of the festival. true, it's probably over commercialised but u cant deny tad nxmas music kindda puts u in a gd mood. though it makes u wanna shop more n spend more too!! hahz. shall continue later, i'm having my driving lessons in 20mins time n i haven changed yet. =p

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2007-03-16T11:47:00.000+08:00

yesh yesh yesh! CA2 is over. not much to be happy about acty. everyth will start all over again in less dena wk's time. my pros is in one month time's, so i noe i prob hafta get back 2 my books again soon. sometimes i can help but wonder why did i pick dis over the other options i had. but deep down inside, i noe i'll prob nvr regret it. but at this point in time, it realli sux when u feel like u r gg thru a levels every 3mths. hahaz. will age faster by dunno how many years. serious. i've nvr studied so much n still feel that it's so insufficient. hahz, but i wunt worry abt it anymore. juz try my best lor. nowadays one realli has 2 take it easy, otherwise will go mad one. last time u want all a lah, want distinction lah, hahz. now, in medical sch, all i wan is to pass comfortably. hard to believe for some pple i think.

aniwae, dunt tok abt sch le. tad dae after exam went out to celebrate. ate at new york new york den we sat there for a whole 3hrs, juz tokkin n wastin time n slackin. feels so gd to haf time to waste lor!! hahaz, sound like a bunch of deprived souls. after tad we went to watch music n lyrics. it's gd, realli. not your standard chick flick. it's a super funny romantic comedy. not as in lame funny, but realli funny. hugh grant and drew barrymore are amazing actors. n hugh grant is such a charming old english guy. (mebbe i shld haf gone to london, hahz.) n the music's not bad too. esp the theme song. it's on repeat mode on my media player now. hahz.

went out with shahri ystd. watched pursuit of happyness. quite nice. suppose 2 b inspirational. i think it's very real, as in the producers didnt make the whole process very dramatic. it's like he realli worked hard and tads wad allowed him 2 make it thru n finally succeed someday. good 4 times when everything seems so difficult and u juz feel like giving up already. 'if you have a dream, u gotta protect it.' if u want sth hard enough n try hard enough, u will achieve wad u want. hahz, sometimes, it's realli easier said den done. oh, but the middle part abit slow though. other den tad, quite a heartwarming show. =p oh, den after tad, we went east coat to eat. den there was this turkish restaurant/cafe near the macdonald's area there. it's realli nice, esp the mushroom soup!! serious, i've nvr enjoyed mushroom soup so much b4. and the rice n kebabs too!! it's realli very nice, n not very expensive oso. den got this special kind of turkish egg pudding oso. taste like custard but more fluid. very nice oso. hahz. the two of us felt so satisfied after the meal lor. esp the mushroom soup. realli realli. v nice!!! hahz. =p

dunno when's the nxt time i'll blog after dis. might disappear for another month again. hahz. dunt even whether anyone still bothers chcking dis place anymore. hahaz.

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2007-02-05T22:23:00.000+08:00

i couldnt help but smile to myself today when i saw my bro sitting beside his sch bag n packing his bks for the nxt day's sch according 2 his timetable. it didnt seem so long ago tad i was doing tad. seems like ystd. can still rmb how i used to sit by my bag n pack it 4 sch every nite. now seeing my bro do it juz makes me feel old. hahz, lao le...

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2007-01-14T12:25:00.000+08:00

thanx pple for the wonderful bdae surprise! i'll definitely remember it. first time i had the whole restaurant noe tad it's my bdae... hahz, although technically nt my bdae yet lah. =p had squad outing ystd, 6 dyas b4 my bdae. went to jack's place 4 dinner. den after dinner, when i thot we were preparing to leave, the restaurant suddenly played a birthday song over their restaurant sound system, meaning the whole estaurant cld hear n the waitress brought a bdae cake over to my table. so paiseh lor. some more the song very long, gt slower n faster version. so everyone in the restaurant was looking over lah... hahz. den my mind was like, 'shit, wad shld i do nxt?' quite amusing acty. aniwae, many many thnx to geraldine, jennifer, yuyi, rach, chyork, yixiang, yehlin, peng peng, hanpin, yongyang, dianyang, jinhui, junhua, junren and shiwei. all the pple who were there. thnx 4 making my bdae so special n memorable. esp the birthday song part. think even geraldine they all hu plan dis oso shocked, didnt expect the restaurant to play song mah. now i noe y tad shahri bdae n cake, he say he scared pple sing song or sth. hahz, paiseh. realli realli thanx to the gals for preparing all these. =p

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2007-01-13T11:52:00.000+08:00

dunno wad to blog abt acty. juz felt like typing sth. sigh, y issit tad within one wk of sch reopening, im already starting 2 dread it. sucks man. this term realli sucks, within one wk i already feel like i dunno hell lot of things n there's hell lot of things to mug. jiayou man, peilin.

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2007-01-08T19:48:00.000+08:00

sch started again. this time, having moved home, im back 2 the days where i used 2 spend more den 1 hr travelling to hc. my life is entrenched in this kind of travelling sia. hahz. but quite used to it liaoz lah. n im not complaining. sg is so small tad travelling frm one end 2 the other takes less den 2hrs by public tpt, so much less den wad others in other ctries haf to go thru. so i cant see y we r complaining. singaporeans... realli muz learn 2 b contented with wad we haf.

aniwae, this sem is gonna pass by in a flash seems i haf 2 exams within this 3-4mths. sigh... they will determine how well i pass into year 2. acty i think everyth will b over b4 i noe it. den year 2 will come n end n den clinicals. seriously. this sem i onli haf 8wks of sch... (i noe, amazing rite, 1 year gt 52 wks, n 8wks is called 1 sem. nus is seriously earning big buckz.) den will come my 2 exams n den my onli long hols. still very undecided on wad i wanna do over the hols. i wanna learn driving, i wanna go on hol since i noe i wunt haf such along hol in future animore, but if i wanna go europe with my og pple, need damn lot of money coz in june some more. alternatively i cld try 2 go somewhere with jen n mok they all, mebbe go aust 2 look 4 yy? or simply go somewhere near for a well-deserved break. hahz. i wanna do loads n loads of things, make full use of the hols!! but first i need cash, hahz. jen say she prob wanna wrk. think i will too bahz. dunno, think abt it when it comes. it's all such a distance away aniwae. i got 2 huge barriers 2 cross first. n i'm not making things easier 4 myself by wasting time the whole day doing god noes wad. hahz, it's so me lor. nvm, first day of sch onli. muz jiayou for the rest of the sem.

oh yar, n i realised today, nus is super scheming. they set our mid-sem break in the cny wk lor. cheat us of our cny break... ntu haf their break the wk after.

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2007-01-03T11:00:00.000+08:00

hmmmz, i finally called the KE7 hall office today. made up my mind to move out of hall already... coz nxt sem i onli haf 8 wks of sch n i realli dowanna stay there during my mth long exam period. such a torture. so it's like if i pay i pay 17wks worth of fees n cathering, while i stay 4 8 wks. abit stupid rite. aniwae, i noe nxt year cfrm nt enough pts 2 stay so might as well start adapting 2 waking up early 2 go sch. nt like i haven been dong it 4 the past 6 years of my life. hee! need to move out my stuff by these few days. abit rush i noe. but no choice lah. mebbe i shld haf made the decision earlier...

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2006-12-28T11:26:00.000+08:00

yesh! i'm finally back... it's been an interesting n wonderful experience i think. well, i'm glad i went but i'm not sure whether i'll return again nxt year. mebbe it's coz i'm still doubting our abilities to offer substantial help to the pple there within the short periods tad we r there. think i've never realised how much i disliked city life n its pple until my experience there. it's amazing how competition n stress forces out the ugly side of pple. kenny said mebbe we r all inherently made out to live on vast lands n not high-rise buildings. mebbe. the purity n innocence of the children n pple at the olive connexions is sth i'll nvr forget. (will post pics up 4 u guyz later when i get them) it's quite difficult 2 explain unless u've been thru it urself. wad i hope is tad these thots n feelings dunt get eroded by the routine n mundanity of everyday life in a few mths time. it's easy 4 pple to want to do wad they feel is correct, but it isn't easy for one to carry it out in our daily situations...

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2006-12-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

i haf no idea how 2 wrk my tagboard again...

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2006-12-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

was reading my bk 4 a large part of today. the bk tad i bought b4 sch started, bt hadnt a chance 2 touch it after tad. u noe i read more pges of it den i did over the past 4 mths. how sad can tad get, hahz. aniwae, saw this paragraph:

"We fall back into silence. I look around XO Cafe and notice that chatter mostly happen at tables where diners are young and hip. The older couples, the ones sporting wedding bands that wink with their silverware, eat without the pepper of conversation. Is it because they are so comfortable, they already know what the other is thinking? Or is it because after a certain point, there is simply nothing left to say?"

sounds damn sad rite. it's this couple in the story who realises that other den the children, they dunt realli haf anyth to tok abt. seems like this is the inevitable fate of most married couples, be it frm bks or seen in reality. issit possible not to tread this path? if u noe this is the end, then wad for begin it? wads the point of marriage then if u eventually will nt be able to carry a conversation with the one person u thot u wanted 2 spend the rest of ur life with...?

juz some random thots abt the stuff i read...

aniwae, it's acty a realli interesting bk. think a lot of pple wld haf heard of it b4. quite famous. jodi picoult's 'my sister's keeper'. kindda makes u think how far will u go 2 save a loved one. acty, hahz, i think parents shld read it. it kindda makes u realise how easy it is 2 neglect a child n take things 4 granted simply coz the problems of ur other child juz seems bigger n more impt. sad fact of life. think it's a very easy mistake tad parents commit. how u juz leave a kid 2 his/her own devices juz coz everyth is smooth sailing 4 him/her. can try reading it if u haf time.

oh yar, went 2 my aunt's place 2 collect my contact lenses in the afternoon today. all the way at bukit timah plaza. den after tad i decided 2 go down the the ntuc there 2 get sth. whoah, the ntuc there special one lor. gt this whole new section on australian foodstuffs. den gt so much cookies, all look so unique n so nice. hahz, took me alot of determination nt 2 buy them lor. cannt eat all these things liaoz lah. ate so much during exam period. feel fat. wait until i get back frm yunnan first. hahz. den gt this wholeshelf of arnott's cookies. nt juz tim tam's. n the tim tam's alone gt so many flavours lor!! hahz. i sound crazy. aniwae, so in the end, i juz bought one packet of chocolate sticks n left. ate it on my way 2 the busstop. it's freakin nice lah. nxt time i go there again, cfrm go buy again. hahz.

2.5 more days to yunnan.

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2006-12-11T15:28:00.000+08:00

sigh, it's been almost another month since i updated anything. i bet pple are realli wndering if uni's tad bad. like all the gals entering uni juz ceased updating for lone periods of time. hahz, mebbe we're juz realli bad at time management. aniwae, exams juz ended 2 days ago 4 me, shifted back home on saturday after dinner with shahri, den went 4 og bbq ystd nite. woke up at 1plus 2day. guess im still recovering frm my slp deficit during exam period. although i think im one of those tad slept the most during the exam period liaoz. i tell u, medical students r amazing. some of them can survive on 3/4 hrs of slp a day one lor. amazing sia. hahz, i seem so slack nxt 2 them sia. but den again, guess it's a matter of habit lah. aniwae, exams was okay i guess. difficult i think but livable. realli hope i passs my physio sia...

aniwae, gg to yunnan in 5 days time n i still haven started packing. some more im like gg out everyday 4 the rest of the wk. too deprived already, plus haven seen a lot of my frens 4 ages, so cannt help it. =p got mixed feelings abt gg 2 yunnan acty. on 1 hand, think it'll realli b an experience of a lifetime. after all i've done so much volunteer wrk in sg, but dis is my first time doing an ocip project. plus it's a place i've nvr been to b4 n with my frens. so quite excited. on the other hand, mebbe coz after gg thru like a mth of exam period, sometimes i juz feel tad mebbe slacking in singapore, relaxing n having fun is nt bad after all. n like by the time i come back onli 2 wks left 2 sch start. so like my hols will juz fly pass. realli hope the experiences i gain frm the trip will be worth it when i come back...

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2006-11-19T22:59:00.000+08:00

juz saw an ambulance, along with a police car pass by the road outside the window of my rm in hall. wonder wad happened...

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2006-11-16T18:54:00.000+08:00

2day's the first time i didnt realli haf any lessons at all ever since sch started. onli had a 40 min prac session at nuh with this 250K mannequin again. hahz. but once again i'm super amazed at the mannequin, not only does it respond to your auditory commands (eg. asking it to open its eyes), it acty breathes out carbon dioxide and takes in oxygen in the same percentages as eachof us does. n, 2dae we were doing on pnuemothorax with is lung collapse caused by air in the lung cavity, the doctor acty stuck a needle into the mannequin's chest wall 2 let out the air n all the values on the ECG machine went back to normal!!! it's bloody hell like a real human responding to therapy sia. no wonder it costs as much as a hdb flat in singapore.

oh, n one funny thing, we learnt abt this genetic connective tissue disorder called the Marfan Syndrome. hahaz, so funny lah, when the doctor mentioned it, everyone thot he was trying 2 b funny since the illness really leads to alot of complications. turns out it's the real name of the illness!! in case anione doesnt get the joke/ pun, read the name of the syndrome in hanyu pinyin way. =p

was out studying with jen, mok n yy the whole afternoon after tad. i miss studying with them. mebbe im too used to it since both the last 2 major exams i went thru, i studied with them. it's juz a feelin of comfort n familiarity i guess. think im realli becoming antisocial. hahz, i enjoy eating dinner in my rm, watchin tv n tokkin 2 shahri on the fone at the same time. den after sch, i can come back 2 rm n study myself, stimes i dunt even mind packing lunch back 2 eat. hahz. but i enjoy it. not 2 say i dunt enjoy the company of some of my frens lah. esp the pple frm my og. but other den tad, i find it too much of a chore. mebbe coz my og pple more or less noe me already. hee! mebbe i dowan 2 b in the medical lib, arnd sch, seeing these pple all the time cause subconsciously i noe tad i'll b wrkin arnd them 4 the rest of my life. quite scary rite, seeing the same pple 4 the rest of ur life. even those tad u noe u cant wrk with. but tads a fact of life.

aniwae, spent the afternoon reading up on the pelvis, which is wad tmr's prac is abt. there r so many complications tad can occur during birth of a child. read until i oso think giving birth too scary liaoz. hahaz. =p

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2006-11-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

i gave myself an off day today... want planned, juz a spontaneous decision. aniwae, i slpet for 3 hrs in the afternoon after coming back frm lessons, woke up at 6.30pm, went 4 dinner den after tad tok 2 shahri until 11pm, put down the phone, lie on my bed 4 a while, finish up my pbl qn 4 tmr in half an hr, pack my stuff, n now im ready 2 go 2 slp again. hahz, sounds like a pig... bt i realli cldnt bring myself to do anyth today. felt so tired... dunno y oso. aniwae, now tad i had sufficient rest 2day, tmr's a whole new day. muz jiayou!!! beta try 2 finish up DNA otherwise i'll lag further again. jiayou peilin, muz do it!!! =p

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2006-11-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

i've always felt that children r a source of hope, mebbe tads y i wanna become a paediatrician... somehow, they always seem to haf an innate ability to simplify and make you see the positive side of things. n the most unbelievable thing is how the strength and courage they haf in them can sometimes b greater den tad of any adult u pick of the streets, esp in the face of true adversity... i realli love kids, i wanna haf loads of them if i haf the ability n time 4 them. hahz. =p they deserve alot more den wad some parents r willing 2 fork out emotionally. so, frens, think abt the discontentment, problems and regrets u haf in ur life tad affected u deeply, n take care nt to let them happen to ur kids in future...

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p.s. juz some random thots... =p

2006-11-01T13:22:00.000+08:00

in my rm now. it's 1.16pm. ended lessons already. think some pple may think i'm realli lucky, get 2 end lessons so early. hahz, but truth is, the day only realli starts when sch ends. bleagh. it feels like a levels all over again. studying after sch everyday... initially i realli werent used 2 it. but i guess in students churned out by the singapore education system, there will always b the potential n capacity 2 mug. i've been doing this 4 like one wk plus n already quite used 2 the idea tad mugging is part n parcel of my life. like how sad lah. hahz. i hope it's all worth it in end. u noe the worst thing abt medical sch is tad there's so much 2 rmb that somehow no matter how much u think u noe, it always seem so insignificant, as though u nvr realli studied. n it's sth i've nvr encountered b4 in my life... i duuno how this entry sounds 2 u guyz, but honestly speaking, im nt feeling as sad as it may seem frm my post. hahaz, im acty so adapted to the idea tad it's juz part of me already, like how u hafta eat n slp everyday. only thing tad's on my mind now though is disappointment tad i didnt get 2 watch deathnote, one of my fav manga some more. but wad 2 do, realli no time lah. wait till exam over den find a way 2 watch it bahz. cant wait 4 exams 2 b over!!! den i can get my life back temporarily. =p

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2006-10-14T15:19:00.000+08:00

i juz read wj's blog... always sorta of knew or had an impression of the kind of person she is, the ambitions she had and the way she deals with stuff. bt somehow, reading thru the few entries tad chanced upon had filled me up with respect 4 her, both as a person and as a future doctor. i admire her 4 her 2 courage to fulfill her dreams, to fight 4 her opprtunities, 2 do the things tad i noe i've wanted to do at some pt in my life, bt had nvr had the opportunities n the courage to fight 4 them. true, wad she has done may haf come at a cost, friends, family... we'll nvr noe, bt if at the end, tads realli wad she thinks her purpose in life is, i say go on, let ur dreams fly high. i see a streak of me in her tad i've nvr had the chance 2 devleop. i think my close frens n family noe how i may want 2 travel the world n wrk as a volunteer doc at less developed ctries in future. i noe how i've always wanted 2 help. how i always look at disaster victims and aid teams n wish i was there. this is where i realise how inferior i m. tok is cheap. acty gettn down 2 doing it is nt easy. unlike wj, i've nvr even tried contacting authorities n stuff. now's nt the time, i'm still young, there'll b chances in future... it's easy 2 give excuses 4 urself, bt it takes a whole lot more courage, belief and hard wrk 2 realli get down 2 taking ur dreams a step further and wrk 2wards achieving them. furthemore, i haf nvr wrked up the courage 2 completely dump my comfort zone n b out there all alone, in a foreign land, with foreign pple, undeveloped facilities, doing wad i believe in... plus, my parents will prob rather kill me den 2 agree to it... therefore, wj, even though i noe we differ drastically in terms of personality, religions, ideas and attitudes, i salute u 4 wad u do n wad u dare to achieve and wish u all the best if u do make it 2 india at the end of the year. =p

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2006-10-12T15:00:00.000+08:00

hahz, im sorta using my illness as an excuse to skip everyth possible dis wk. think i realli nd the rest. feel so much more relaxed den last wk, which was hell. guess tads y i fell sick. i skipped pbl 2dae, nt much pt gg since i noe i'll juz b falling aslp in front of the tutor. hahz. still haven come 2 a decison yet abt hallplay. coz once i pull out, there's definitely no chance of me stayin here nxt year liaoz. cfrm nt enough pts. den again i can always consider pgp. guess some pple will probably nt uds y im even thinking of staying a second year. bt den seriously rite, once u get used 2 it, the convenience n freedom is sth u wunt feel like giving up. bt pgp is suppose 2 b even smaller n im realli comfortable in this particular rm liaoz. hahz. so i dunno how. later even if i wrk my heart out 4 hallplay oso nt enough pt den super waste time oso. shit lah, when u r doing things tad u r nt thoroughly enjoying, u start 2 become very practical. hee!

aniwae, was reading my dna notes while eating lunch while watching this medical series on tv. dunt even noe wad it's called, think it's quite long ago one. think dealing with patients' and their families disappointments' gonna b one of the most difficult aspects of my job nxt time... yar, n it's amazing how stimes realli small n simple things r the ones that can realli make u happy. =p

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2006-10-10T14:58:00.000+08:00

seeing that even geraldine had made the effort 2 revive her blog, decided to make an attempt to do so b4 i lose all those pple who acty diligently try 2 keep up with my life. aniwae, haven blogges in abt 2mths already, n even den my last blog entry was nt realli sth i came up with. hahz. sch's crazy, guess mebbe im trying 2 do too much in too little time. plus there's a neverending amt of knowledge 2 b absorbed in med sch. it's realli crazy. currently in a rather sick state. went 2 the doc ystd, he said i had tonsilitis. (inflammation of the tonsils caused by bacteria...), so im having a very painful throat plus recurrent fever frm the infection. nt so bad now, ystd i gt a shock when i saw my body temp shoot 2 39.0C. thank gosh it went down in the nite. guess it's my body's way of telling me 2 take a rest. haven realli slowed down my pace at all since sch started. cept like the first 2 wks or so when hall activities hasnt started... yar, so in the end i didnt go sch ystd. nt completerly recovered yet, bt thot i better go sch 2dae otherwise i'll haf alot of things 2 catch up on esp since they r starting on the big chap- heart!!

im realli torn btw wanting 2 make my uni life a fulfilling one and wanting to haf time n space 2 myself and the pple arnd me, to do the things i want to do. i want 2 go back 2 the times in the first 2 wks where i can meet frens in town 4 lunch, hang arnd my frens rm watching stupid videos at nite. even blogging seems a luxury now. sigh... thinking of pulling out of hallplay acty. think it's realli tough trying 2 balance tad against the yunnan trip meetings as well as the other hall activities. plus the countless number of readings tad i haf... n i'll definitely choose my ocip over hallplay anytime. at least i click with the pple there more n haf more fun. =p dunno lah. if i want 2 pull out i hafta decide fast, otherwise it'll b very irresponsible. bt i still cant make up my mind...

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2006-08-26T15:32:00.000+08:00

Your life is represented by the lucky castle, smart and low-pitched. You will create your own future with your attractiveness. You keep your word and you like kind and determined people. You look like an easy-going person but you are actually quite determined.

Your characteristics, subconscious, and behavior modes, according to your fate and destiny, are represented by the castle. You will naturally protect yourself, but can accept others. You are amiable and smart, but a bit dull.

You understand things clearly, but tend to keep your viewpoint inside your heart. Although a castle is impressive and imposing it also seems unchangeable. People will neglect your contribution until you leave your original position or give your feedback, only then will they discover your importance. You have your own viewpoint, but are willing to cooperate with others and give them the stage and opportunity to perform. A castle is has defense function, so you are more defensive and others are unable to enter your inner world.

Your appearance is very amiable, but you are very rigid in your heart and will persist and not give up. You admire people who are heroic, dominating and a bit arrogant, but also respect those who are unselfish and lenient with others. Your entire life is like a solid castle, devoted society, never asking for any payback, and being supportive of others. You will have many good friends in the down times of your life. (i sure hope so! =p)

Health Analysis: Your liver and gall is weaker as well.

Your liver and gall is weaker as well, so you tend to tire easily and can't do labor-intensive jobs. You may have had irritability and acne when you were young. But over age 40, your liver and gall require additional care, or you may have problems such as cholesterol and triglyceride, abnormal liver, liver or gall deceases, or even suffer a delining immune system, which leads to failing eyesight. Therefore, it's very important for you to pay attention to your liver and gall and maintain a stable schedule for your life. Monitor your glycerin level, consume less alcohol, avoid fatigue, and most importantly, do not to stay up overnight.

According to your destiny analysis, you are a night owl as you seem to be more energetic and inspired at night, so you tend to sleep late and get up late. However, sleeping and waking up early is extremely helpful to your fate and destiny, even though it's not easy for you. You don't easily offend others as you don't like to be the one on top. You better stay away from alcohol if you want to change your fate and destiny, as it drains your energy quickly and negatively affects your fortune. If you are able to develop the good habit of sleeping and waking up early, it will completely change your fate and destiny with better health, more wealth and happiness coming into your life.

The way you get along with your boyfriend or husband is more like friends in an equal position looking for a mutual balance. You have your own territory, friends, and also insist on your own opinions, so some disputes and disagreements are unavoidable.

In romance, according to our analysis, men tend to fall in love with you at first sight but lack the confidence to go after you. If they dare win your heart, the romance heats up quickly, but you have many disagreements because you tend to have a temper and be in a higher social position. (I guess being a doctor counts...) Generally speaking, you make quite a good first impression of you because you are capable and charming, but men may feel you are too high to reach. As a result you don't cherish or learn how to maintain a relationship. Therefore, if you are still waiting for a good romance, try to conceal your outer beauty in order to find more sincere and suitable lovers who aren't just attracted to your looks. Then true romance will come your way.

In the journey of life, your romantic or marriage partner tends to be very different from you. You don't easily have a spark of love with any colleague, but do easily start a relationship with someone from a different background and environment. You are mutually attracted to your differences, but you have to overcome the wide gap together. Therefore, it's better to think twice about your ideal partner when it comes to marriage. If you are still waiting for romance, consider people around you who are unlikely candidates and they might be the possible one. As long as you sincerely give a little hint, the happiness is right beside you.

Career Analysis: Most of your jobs, in any industry, require some creativity, communication and critical thinking ability.

Most of your jobs, in any industry, require some creativity, communication and critical thinking ability. For example, R&D, marketing, sales, etc. As long as you keep turning your ideas into action, your value in a company is irreplaceable. If you choose jobs that require critical thinking ability, your work will go smoothly (jobs that are labor intensive are not suitable). You tend, however, to think from only your own point of view, so you may lack a broader perspective for higher management. You should further strengthen your experience, and if you want to reach the next professional level, then you should be more understanding and considerate of other employees and communicate more, in order to improve your leadership ability.

Wealth Analysis: You know how to make money well through investment or starting a business.

According to your destiny analysis, you know how to make money well through investment or starting a business. You knew the importance of the money since you were young, and knew it's very difficult to be rich depending only on a salary, so you learned about investment earlier than others. Therefore, you were making money with investments while others were spending money and enjoying their lives. Born very clever, you will not spend money if unnecessary, but will be relatively more generous to your children. You will invest most of your wealth or reward those around you throughout life. Afterwards, you will bequest most of your wealth to your children and relatives.

this thing's suppose 2 b some fortune telling thing based on ur birth date n time. kindda freakinly accurate. esp abt my personality i guess. even i night-owl oso can tell, hahz.

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2006-07-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

whoah, super long nvr blog liaoz. kena scolding frm pple some more. hahz. so concerned abt my life sia. acty wanted 2 blog last wkend after i came back frm medicamp, bt there's been so many things gg on tad i kept pushin it back. aniwae... abit dunno where 2 start coz too many things 2 tok abt. hahz, go in chronological order i guess. muz look at the pics on my hp den rmb. this is gonna b one long post sia... here goes...

11/07: a special day in my life... think there'll b alot of uncertainties n challenges in future, bt let's hope we'll overcome them together...

12/07: met becca 4 lunch today. went 2 dis place called foolin yong tau foo. it's at the siglap area there. nt bad, quite nice. i nvr eat b4 one. the noodles quite special. it's chu mi fen with some kind of sauce n minced meat with yong tau foo in the sauce 2. after tad, we went coffee club 2 eat mudpie. nxt time anione wants 2 go coffee club shld go the siglap one. the seats there damn nice, all r the big cushion/couch kind. very gd place 2 chill out n chit chat. in the end, we sat there 4 like 3hrs, even though we onli SHARED a mudpie lor. hahz. think we talked abt everyth possible already, hah. frm the past to now to wad we wld b like in future. acty quite scary if u think abt it. gals, can ur imagine urself as mums worrying abt the sch ur kids go 2, the pple they hang out with... yikes! aniwae, she brought back these realli nice liquor chocs frm aust. thnx beckz!!

13/07: met shahri 4 dinner at tamp b4 he had 2 leave 4 wrk. den met geraldine 4 coffee at starbuckz 2 chit chat n chill out again. coz she wanted 2 noe wad happpened, n i had stuff 2 tell her, so i thot it'll b easier 2 tok in person. aniwae, she juz came back frm hk n had alot of interestin stories 2 tell. =p in the end, we left starbuckz at abt 11pm. hahz, think i realli spend alot of my time chit chattin!

14/07: met the gals 4 a day of shopping in town 2dae. gt leen, milly, eve n jen. we went 2 take neoprints!! hahz, dunno y 2day everyone looked realli happy, den all the pics oso look nice. so difficult 2 choose lor. in the end i bought a red top frm topshop n a skirt frm forever 21. after tad, went 4 triple e n den bcm with geraldine, jen n manfred. so funny lor, the ba qua couple was gg round n round in circles even though i already knew wad they wanted 2 ask. hahz.

15/07: 2dae was hc speech day. had 2 go back 2 sch 2 receive my commendation 4 my a levels. super dumb lor. it's like half the sch, 300plus, 400 pple gt 4As n above lor. so we had 2 sit thru n another afternoon in the audi, watchin 300 over pple go up onstage 2 receive their prize. pple clap oso clap until sian lor. bt can c hu all the high-flyers in the sch r. some pple r siao lor, dunno go up on stage how many times, receive how mani million prizes lor. bt i was super disinterested lah. end up chattin with lisa over how dumb it is, n smsin on my hp. hahz. den make all of us wear formal wear some more lor. super mah fan. bt in the end coz everyone like nan de wear so nice, ended up spending alot of time takin photos, hahz. more like foto-takin day den prize presentation. after tad, went 2 town 2 eat at mos. den after tad left at 7plus 2 meet shahri 2 watch pirates at tamp. the show was quite slow in the middle. so gt abit sian. den dunno is my hearin gt prob or wad, gt some parts abit dunt uds wad they sayin n the storyline. hahz. bt the fightin scenes n all tad quite nice lah, n the effects. n johnny depp is funny in it. hee!

16/07: went out with mummy, grandma n bro 2dae. mummy wanted 2 spend her 80 buckz metro voucher or sth, so went 2 paragon outlet 2 c c if there's anyth 2 buy. turns out voucher cant b used durin sale period, n the gss was still nt over yet. so decided 2 get my pillow frm metro the following wk when gss is over. walked arnd town den went 2 zara at taka. they were havin sale!! bought a white top there. mummy oso bought some basics. i like zara sale, coz the items r still decent, unlike mango sale where they onli put out those nt nice things one... aniwae, after tad went 4 dinner at zhong huan at taka, the hk cafe. there's a branch at tamp oso. the layered tofu with pork floss is super nice lor. den we ordered the peanut butter toast thing. hahz, my bro was totally in love with it. den tell my mum go home make 4 him some more. funny sia.

17/07: didnt haf much on 2dae, so decided 2 go out walk walk with geraldine while we were online ystd nite. hahz, didnt need 2 ask jen coz we knew manfred was on leave tad dae. aniwae, went city hall suntec n marina square 2 walk walk. we went 2 eat the jap curry at curry favour at stamford hse. it's near city hall mrt, abt 5 mins walk liddat. if u read my previous posts, i acty wanted 2 go there n eat frm very long time ago already. budden when i went there 2dae, feel abit guilty lah, hahz. coz i noe shahri wanted 2 bring me there 2 eat one. aniwae, tads besides the pt. the food there is realli nice!! the place itself oso very nice!! away frm the bustling crowd, den very peaceful n nice ambience. bt seriously, the jap curry there is nice. we ate the pork n chicken katsu curry. oh yar, n the service was gd too!! =p went shoppin again after lunch. saw these 2 nice jackets at adidas. i liked the brown one beta, bt geraldine says the orange one nicer, bt had hood, which i find very mah fan. cldnt decide so didnt buy 2dae. after tad bought sth at zara again when we went marina square. the shop even bigger den the taka one i think, den gt alot of designs n stuff. so quite nice 2 walk.

den after tad, in the evening, met shir, jingli n becca 4 dinner at orchard. in the end, jing li's rehearsal thingy 4 her prize presentation ended late, so she came at abt 9pm i think. so... in the end, i left orchard at like 10.30pm, n the worst thing is, i had medicamp the nxt day n i still haven packed. n i hafta reach nus by 8am lor. siaoz rite. bt okay lah, it's nt everyday tad i get 2 meet up with shir n jing li. some more, all 3 of them flyin off soon. by the end of this year, the 4 of us will b in 4 different ctries... they were my closest frens in pri sch lor. =p promised becca i'll send her an email once a mth after she gets 2 canada. beta make sure i rmb. hahz.

18/07-21/07: Medicamp!! was realli super sian when i was packin my stuff ystd nite. coz it was super late already, (i packed until 1plus lor...) den gt alot of things 2 bring, den muz wake up so early some more. den hardly noe anione gg 4 the camp, n so freakin scared tad med pple will b the very studious n serious kind. turns out i was pretty wrong i guess. my seniors/the ogls r acty pretty cool pple. alot of them like go travellin all over the place, go cable skiing, play sports, blah blah 0ne. doesnt realli sound like stereotypical med students rite. even my og pple oso. most of them r quite fun, bt i think my og is quite on lah. we won the overall best og 4 the camp. (rapunzel won!!!) so quite high, hahz. it's gd 2 get off 2 a gd start i guess since we'll b seeing each other arnd for a long long long long time. nt juz the 5 years in sch, bt prob beyond tad, as colleagues. oh yar, n super qiao, the bf of cynthia, this gal i get along quite well with in the og, is acty in geraldine's og in their biz camp. amazing rite?! singapore is so small lor. hahz. now i'm like super tanned. my mum c le oso cannt stand it, keep sayin i very dark. den my face was super burned after the camp lor. it was red!! oh, n my timetable's realli short in first year. i end at like 1pm everyday. means i can still haf time 2 play arnd in year 1. =p muz take the time 2 learn more stuff, experience new things, things i may nt get a chance 2 do in future. hee! so pple, can still ask me out 2 haf fun kz!

my og's bungalow at aloha loyang, where our camp was held.

some dress up game we played on the second day 4 dry games. milton was super on lor, so we won the game hands down. hahz!

there was some cookin competition thing on the 2nd day, den our theme was super difficult, mexican... bt the bunch of us managed 2 whip sth up, n the food was realli super nice lor. after the judges left, everyone juz started eatin it. hahz. nt onli tad, the whole place was transformed lor, with nice ambience n all tad. quite amazing.

on the third day, after wet games. super hot day n we were running arnd in black tees!! since it was the last nite of the camp, everyone started takin photos with everyone else when we reached back 2 the chalet. hahz. mass photo-takin session.

me, xinrong n cynthia!!

with yanling, elizabeth n steph.

elizabeth

jonk

with waijia n yingbei.

darius

xinrong

playin jenga while waitin 4 the bbq 2 start on the last nite.

kaiping

some of my ogls, dominic, brenda n kumaran.

thomas

snapshots of the bbq...

our boozing/ truth or dare session on the last nite. lasted for 4 hrs i think. with lots of chit chat n alcohol. hee! =p

quite glad i went 4 the camp. at least i wunt b so lost when sch starts. gt pple 2 sit with in lectures n seniors 2 ask qns abt.

22/07: haiz, tiredz liaoz lor. onli on the 22nd, still gt one wk more 2 tok abt leh... aniwae, after camp, went 2 downtown east 4 lunch with my og, after tad, went home 2 slp for like 3hrs, den was out of the hse again 4 triple e ystd nite. so when i woke up 4 tuition dis morning, was still feelin super tired. after tad was supposed 2 meet up with chyork, yx, yl n mok at kbox some more. aniwae, it was my last tuition session coz the boy's mum finally found a new tuition teacher 2 replace me. was gettin super sian of tuition lor. it's realli easy money lah, bt after a while, u realli dread it one. was quite stoned at kbox i think. bt okay lah, always feel very relax n at ease when im hanging out with my squadmates. oh, btw, kbox's food improve tremendously liao, it comes in nice bento sets now!! was quite shocked when i saw it delievered. n it acty tastes pretty decent. after tad, yx realli itching 2 play mj, so in the end they came over 2 my hse in the evening. played for 3hrs plus i think. cant believe i still won 6 plus buckz even though i was still sufferin frm lack of slp. nvr play 4 quite some time already. they ate dinner at my hse den after tad started experimenting with the hair straightener tad geraldine bought earlier in the day. think the guyz found it quite amusing or sth. kept saying they wanna play with geraldine's hair. hahaz. aniwae, the guyz left at abt 9plus, so in the end, me, jen, geraldine n yy juz sat down in my rm n tokked. told yy abt everyth, den we talked abt gal stuff until like 12.30am lor. hahaz, think i engage in gal tok pretty often. bt i'm realli super glad 2 haf my bunch of gal pals whom i noe i can depend on no matter wad happens!! =p

23/07: met shahri 2dae. wanted 2 go get my jacket. hee! in the end, decided on the brown one coz dowanna b so aa. the orange one too bright already. went 2 eat curry favour again, hahz, bt i did confess tad i ate it b4 already. bt 2dae i tried the mushroom curry, it's super nice lor. esp coz i realli realli luv mushrms. seriously, everyone shld go there n try at least once. =p den went 2 national lib oso. first time i walked arnd in here even though it's been open 4 so long. onli went there once b4 dis, n tad was 4 the psc interview. acty, it's a realli nice place i think. den coz it's so big, with so many floors, there's so many places n corners 4 u 2 chill out, enjoy the scenery n juz relax. shld go there more often. make ur mood beta man! =p

24/07: first day of float activity. went 2 sch at 9am lor. bt i think my og very slack. in the end we nvr do much oso. den had like a 2hr lunch break. hahz. ended up sittin arnd n chit chattin most of the time. think float is a pretty sian thing. it's realli the pple tad makes it fun. cant imagine havin 2 go down everyday though...

25/07: 2dae's float prep starts at 2pm. hahaz, c, told u my og was slack rite. nobody wanted 2 go sch so early, so we decided 2 meet at 2pm, wrk until 5pm, den go catch a movie after tad. hahz! we watched nacho libre. super dumb show. plotless one lor, it's been a pretty long time since i last watched a show liddat. hahz. bt okay lah, very relxing. aniwae, the turn out was quite gd. 17 out of 28, considering tad some pple were out of town, while some were still wrkin. gt home pretty late after the movie.

26/07: went parkway 2 play pool with shahri 2dae. think play with me he super sian one lor. hahaz, so nt excitin mah, i so lan. he was tryin 2 teach me wad was the proper way 2 do everyth, bt nt sure whether i gt it rite. hee! den he insisted on sendin me home early coz it's the seventh mth lor. stimes i wonder if he's chinese or i'm chinese, hahz! =p

27/07: another float day. met at 1.30pm in sch. in the end... slack again. hahz. bt okay lah, mostly completed, left the paintin n the stickin of the cloth n coloured cans down. so shld b able 2 finish in 1 or 2 days time. so we did like 1hr of float stuff den went 2 play floorball. hahz. nt bad quite fun. shld realli consider joining the floorball recre club or sth. den after all the running abt, i was super determined 2 go run 2dae coz very long nvr run n sweat liaoz. so when i reach home in the evening, finally went jogging after like a 2 wks break. feels great 2 excercise n sweat acty, cannt lead a lifestyle tad is too sedentary. hahz.

28/07: okay, 2 more days, almost done. went sentosa with my og 2dae. suppose 2 meet at 11am at harbourfront. was abit early coz overestimated the time needed 2 get there. bt in the end, almost everyone was late lor. hahaz, all grp outings always turn out liddat one leh. with np or class pple oso liddat. so in the end when we reached sentosa, it was almost 1pm, coz we went 2 eat lunch b4 tad. abit siaoz rite, go there in midday sun. so in the end, my face gt abit red again. aniwae, played vball, frisbee, went rollerbalding, ate ice cream, played water, gossiped the entire day. hahaz, quite fun. the turn out was quite gd again. had 17, 18 pple again. left sentosa at like 6plus, so in the end i nvr go triple e. went 2 pasta mania at harbourfront 4 dinner, den sat there n chit chat after tad until pple draw shutters 2 close shop lor. hahaz. dom commented tad my og pple realli dunt look or sound like med students. we tok so much nonsense all the time lor, den like 2 gossip so much, hahz. funny sia.

29/07: there's volunteers appre 2dae. this year's event is super simple n super short lor. lasted onli 4 like 2hrs lor. bt the eclair n the cream puff at the buffer was super nice. after the thing ended, the whole bunch of us went over 2 billy bombers at tamp 2 drink milkshake, eat desserts n chit chat. the guyz ended up tokkin abt army stuff again. hahz. if u go out with ns men, can nvr escape tad topic one lor. it's like a national topic of converation tad links the whole nation's guyz 2gether. hahz. went over 2 jen's hse 4 awhile after tad. didnt do much, juz surfed some webbies n tokked abt some stuff den left when geraldine had 2 go meet her frens.

yesh!!! i'm finally done. if ur realise, every single date since my previous update is filled in this entry lor. which explains y i didnt haf the time 2 blog over the past 2 wks!! i was out everyday... so, nt my fault kz, there was realli alot of things gg on. quite crazy rite? didnt expect the 2 wks b4 sch starts 2 b like dis. finally gt chance 2 take a breather tmr. muz realli pack my stuff liaoz. will prob shift them over nxt thur or fri, den realli live in it startin frm mon the following wk. acty the thot of livin alone, with no one 2 care abt wad u do sounds pretty appealin, bt whenever i think abt the hsehld things, like laundry, i feel super sian. okay, fine, im a lazy gal kz. serious, im nt the cookin, sewing, washin kind of gal... haiz. no choice i guess.

=lin=

2006-07-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

guess wad time i woke up 2dae? hahaz, 4.30pm. siaoz rite. coz hardly slept 4 the previous 2 nites lor. world cup's fault. hahz, quite glad that germany gt their 3rd placing, they deserve it. i wanted france 2 win the cup one though. so abit disappointed at the finals. some more i think penalty kicks r like a realli terrible way 2 decide the wc winners. dunno lah. dunno wad zidane thinkin oso, go n foul pple liddat. some more left like 8 mins of extra time onli lor. aniwae, after a month, it's all over. can go back 2 my normal slping times liaoz. hahz. =p

went back dunman 4 pop on sat evening. think its like the last time we gg back liaoz. the last batch that we noe oso pass out liaoz. feels super different now. feel freakin old lor. think its like common thru the whole squad. hahz, look at them so enthu, den we cant even bother 2 do the mass dance liaoz lor. yongyang say old liaoz. hah, true lo. bt the entire atmosphere very different liaoz lah, the whole unit gt the super relax, super recreational kind of feelin. heard that this year camp onli gt 2 official days of prep or sth. as if last time we gt such things liddat. dunno whether the changes r gd or bad. now pple prob more willing 2 join np liaoz, nt so xiong. bt lookin back, i noe its cause of the tough times tad i haf the frenships tad i haf now. it's liddat i guess, u get some, u lose some... aniwae, after tad we went swensens at parkway 2 eat at like 9pm lor. haven gt the grp foto frm jen yet, so cannt post. haiz, ice cream AGAIN lor. oh, but i took foto with pengpeng, hu came over frm ndp preview. nt sure whether he wearin the uniform tad geraldine always say v nice. if it is, den can gek geraldine, hahz, coz she always say wanna take foto with him in uniform.

by the time i finish dinner, already 1030pm liaoz lor. den rush home, bathe, change, den out of the hse again lor. hahaz, go manfred hse watch soccer match again. gawin n jas ps us though. so in the end onli left 4 of us. by the time the match ended, already 5plus, hardly slept, den went home at like 7am. slept 4 like 2plus hrs onli, den wake up bathe, went out 2 meet eve n loo liaoz. went sing k again. hahz. den onli 3 of us lor. realli is sing non-stop one lor. hahaz. den eve's camera went out of batt, so we painstakingly took a photo with my hp. coz it cant stand on its own mah. so in the end, we put it in a cup 2 make it stand while the timer count down. hahz. super funny. den we go sing all the old old songs frm our childhood. quite high though. =p

after tad, went straight 2 meet family 4 dinner coz its my mum's bdae. me n sis's treat. hahz. ate at lemongrass. so long nvr eat there liaoz. the tomyam soup still very nice. =p cant help it, i like spicy stuff. den immediately after tad, went 2 meet eve, loo n qt 2 come my hse, coz they all dunno how 2 go. hahz, busy rite. my activities like non-stop liddat. den we played stupid games n watch soccer thru the nite b4 they went home dis morning. hahz, den after tad i slept like crazy lor. hee! think my gal frens r some of the most impt pple in my life. they r pple u can tok nonsense, do stupid things, gossip, worry n share dreams with. dunno how 2 say oso. think the frenship btw gals is very different in nature frm tad of guyz bahz. tads y i always appreciate the time we spend together, even if nt doing anyth in particular. ystd was super funny lor. we played game of life, den i think l laugh until stomachache thru out the 2 hrs lor. qt keep drawing the lowest salary, den kena alot of kids some more. until her car oso nt enough 2 put the pple lor. it's super funny. den she keep saying wad if her life is realli liddat oso, hahz. sometimes i realli wonder wad we will b like 10 years down the road. how each of us will live our lives... now i cant wait 4 the stayover with yy they all nxt wkend. =p dunno hu's hse we gg though, hee!

sidenote: dunno y recently very lazy 2 wear my contact lens... haiz. can tell frm my photos rite, hahz, always c me in specs. muz go back 2 the habit of puttin on my contact lens...

=lin=

2006-07-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

SHE's lastest song... nt realli a fan of theirs, bt this song quite nice. =p mebbe coz like was evelyn said, 很符合我现在的心境吧。。。 dunno... hahz.

<<触电>> S.H.E

风走在我们前面甩裙摆画著圆圈
花美得兴高采烈那香味有点阴险
你在我旁边的旁边但影子却肩碰肩
偷看一眼你的唇边是不是也有笑意明显

明明是昨天的事情怎麼今天我还在经历
一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地
想问个愚蠢问题我们再这样下去你猜会走到哪里

但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话
先让我多著急一下再终於等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦
像这样触电就够我快乐熔化

我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急著开花
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻
就这样触电一直甜蜜触电直到爆炸

像一年四个季节都被你变成夏天
我才会在你面前总是被晒红了脸
像一百万个秋千在我心里面叛变
被你指尖碰到指尖我瞬间就被汤到天边

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2006-07-08T00:12:00.000+08:00

juz reached home nt long ago. still haf tuition tmr morning. sianz. jerry came over 2 the centre 2dae after triple e. so we juz stood there n chit chat while the boys entertain us with their antics frm like 9 to 11pm. long rite? aniwae, force my class 2 take foto with me 2dae. =p dunno when's gg 2 b my last class. cant decide. acty i cant even decide whether im stopping 4 gd. she bu de... my p1s r so cute some more. small small khairul, shy shy shykri, the triplets... haiz... acty the main prob i im stayin in hostel, so travellin back every friday becomes a hassel. mebbe i shld juz nt b so lazy rite. aniwae, here r the fotos! =p

finally went running ystd evening after stoning at home 4 like 2 wks due 2 my dental surgery. didnt dare do anyth drastic the wk b4 even though i was bloody free at home. some more still gt the swellin 2 worry abt. pple wld think i'll lose weight after drinkin porridge 4 like 3 or 4 days. budden i think put on weight more likely. i ate ice cream for like 5 straight days durin that period lor. coz tad was like the easiest n most convenient thing 2 eat. den immediately when i was beta over the wkends, went out n eat gd food everyday lor. liddat how 2 nt gain weight?!?!

went squad outing on sat. cant rmb when was the last time i saw jf, rachael n yy lor. nice 2 c them arnd, esp jf, since he's leavin soon. he's realli gettin 900 pounds allowance a month lor. tads like 2700 sing dollars, y i give up my scholarship!? abit jealous abt the places he'll go, things he'll c, bt nvm, i'll get my chance in future. =p went 2 ichiban boshi at suntec 4 dinner. ate the salmon kaminabe. super nice. some more come with the specialty noodles there which i love! den the gals ordered my fav coffee jelly with green tea ice cream n milk 2 share. it's still as nice as ever. think geraldine oso fell inm love with it. it's a realli great restaurant. i enjoy myself everytime i'm there. hee!

den guess wad? i went 2 eat at the same restaurant again on sunday with my class. their fav restaurant wad. or rather, eric's fav restaurant. hahz. abit scary 2 c the same kind of food again on 2 consecutive days. but okay lah, didnt eat 2 much coz we were gg 2 go over swensens 2 eat ice cream(earthquake!!) 2 celebrate eric's bdae. there, u c, ice cream again. haiz... all the weight lost over the porridge back in 2 days. kns. aniwae, didnt take much fotos over these outings coz my cheek was still abit swollen n i refuse 2 haf my foto taken liddat. hahz. so mostly its juz food.

2dae's my last day at wrk. so high lor. =p finally can leave the office. im realli nt suited 4 office wrk lor. after half a year, i still dunt uds how pple can manage 2 stay there n do the same things over n over again each day for like 10 years... siaoz. bt think they quite cham, so many pple leavin. after this wk, its like 6 of us will b gone. den nxt wk another few, so on so forth. think the perm stuff will b up 2 their neck in wrk soon. lookin forward 2 my dyas of freedom, my days of slackin arnd, sleepin late, watchin vcd, going cyclin, going shoppin (i still haven buy my jacket yet!!), watch movie (i wanna watch re-cycle! anione?), do nth. hahz, sound so exciting!! (2 me lah!) yay!! finally dun nd c this logo eveyday...

my supervisor n us! he's realli super nice lor! =p

some of my colleagues...

the guyz hu were leavin on the same day as us... =p

seriously my eyebags r hiong sia. muz realli go cure it durin my break. otherwise sch start liao den even less hope of removing. hahz. muz slp more! hee! =p

=lin=

2006-07-06T13:28:00.000+08:00

You Are a Blue Flower

A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance.At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower.And at other times, you are wise like an iris.And more than you wish, you're a little cold, like a blue hydrangea.

What Color Flower Are You?

2006-07-06T13:23:00.001+08:00

freak, i'm gg 2 get addicted 2 doing all these nonsense tests online lor. some more frm nxt wk on i dun need 2 wrk liaoz. yayz!! =p muz go get more vcds frm mok 2 watch, b4 sch starts!! 2nite when i get home den will load the photos n update u guyz abt wad i did over the wk...

=lin=

2006-07-06T13:23:00.000+08:00

You Are 23 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

2006-07-06T13:21:00.000+08:00

You Should Drive a Saturn Sky

You're sleek and smooth, and you need a car to match your hot persona.Besides, sometimes you want your top up - and sometimes you want it down.

What 2007 Car Should You Drive?

2006-07-06T13:20:00.000+08:00

You Are Big Bird

Talented, smart, and friendly... you're also one of the sanest people around.
You are usually feeling: Happy. From riding a unicycle to writing poetry, you have plenty of hobbies to keep you busy.
You are famous for: Being a friend to everyone. Even the grumpiest person gets along with you.
How you life your life: Joyfully. "Super. Duper. Flooper."

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

2006-07-05T15:49:00.000+08:00

hmmmzzz, seems like i gt rather conflicting personality. hahz, fun n frenly yet difficult 2 uds?? can tell i was rather bored rite? hah, =p

=lin=

2006-07-05T15:41:00.000+08:00

You Are 35% Normal

You sure do march to your own beat...But you're so weird, people wonder if it's a beat at allYou think on a totally different wavelengthAnd it's often a chore to get people to understand you

How Normal Are You?

2006-07-05T15:38:00.000+08:00

hahaz, wad issit abt me n choc chips? =p

=lin=

2006-07-05T15:37:00.000+08:00

You Are a Chocolate Chip Cookie

Traditional and conservative, most people find you comforting.You're friendly and easy to get to know. This makes you very popular - without even trying!

What Kind of Cookie Are You?

2006-07-05T15:32:00.000+08:00

You Are Chocolate Chip Ice Cream

You are kind, popular, and generous.You tend to be successful at anything you try.A social butterfly, you are great at entertaining a crowd.
You are most compatible with strawberry ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

2006-07-05T15:29:00.000+08:00

Your Power Color Is Gold

At Your Highest:
You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you.
At Your Lowest:
You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life.
In Love:
You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude.
How You're Attractive:
You passion for life makes others passionate about you.
Your Eternal Question:
"Am I Having Fun?"

What's" Your Power Color?

2006-07-05T13:26:00.000+08:00

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

2006-07-05T13:08:00.000+08:00

Your Love Element Is Wood

In love, you tend to gently dominate and guide your partner.For you, love is all about sharing goals and future plans.
You attract others with creativity and vision.Your flirting style is defined by your honesty and assertiveness.
Growth and improvement are the cornerstones of your love life.You may focus on goals too much in relationships, but you never come out of them with a loss.
You connect best with: Water
Avoid: Metal
You and another Wood element: will be doomed to a stormy relationship

What Element Is Your Love?

2006-07-05T13:05:00.000+08:00

You Are Kermit

Hi, ho! Lovable and friendly, you get along well with everyone you know.You're a big thinker, and sometimes you over think life's problems.Don't worry - everyone know's it's not easy being green.Just remember, time's fun when you're having flies!

The Muppet Personality Test

2006-07-05T12:54:00.000+08:00

did some of the tests found on geraldine's blog. hahz, we're both 80% capricorn, pretty typical type i think. hee. the second one's quite amusing though, 'juz feel like playin arnd n flirtin'? hahz, nt realli my character leh. but mebbe? more like nt willin 2 settle down though, i think. =p either that or i think i may haf commitment phobia or sth. hahz, if there's such a thing. coz tad day was tokkin 2 jen n eve in the office den realise i realli think in a weird way... =p

aniwae, pple with 2 much time 2 spare can go do some of the tests. the webbie gt tons of boh liao tests, testing frm wad kind of donut r u, to god noes wad. hah!

=lin=

2006-07-05T12:50:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2006-07-05T12:44:00.000+08:00

You are 80% Capricorn

How Capricorn Are You?

2006-06-28T10:36:00.000+08:00

in case u r wonderin y i'm home at this time n a wkday 2 blog, it's coz i juz had my stupid wisdom teeth extracted ystd. yar, teeth, plural. didnt wanna think too much abt it ystd nite so decided i shall leave the topic untouched until 2dae despite the fact tad i did update my blog ystd. aniwae, had my surgery apptment at 3pm, went in abt 3.15pm, was out at like 3.35pm! fast rite!! the surgeon say it was one of the smoothest surgery he went thru coz i had like absolute zero complaints at all. it's like pple will wince when the inject anesthetic or sth, den wriggle arnd n stuff. hahz, den he said that he likes to do surgery on doctors n nurses coz they usu noe wad u r doing, so they wunt like scream or anyth. but den again, i think it's juz a matter of ctrlling ur emotions. hahz, i may seem bloody calm on the surface, bt was super ganjiong in my mind one lor. guess i was gd at puttin on a calm front, so much so that the surgeon said i seem 2 b enjoying the surgery more den he was. aniwae, the thing is, that was the initial part at the ndc.

everyth turned to hell when i reach home man. once the anesthetic started wearing off, the pain was crazy lor. eat painkillers oso still can feel abit lor. some more the stupid painkillers supposed 2 b bloody strong, muz eat after food, n still muz eat another medicine 2 protect my stomach lining frm it. sounds scary rite? den its like my surgery was at 3plus, den at like 9plus, blood was still flowing out frm the wound lor. freak lah! dunno how much blood i swallowed over the 6hrs man, even though i was biting on a gauze most of the time. so the whole of ystd's nite was crazy. had 2 wake up 2 take my medication lah, den the pain was makin it difficult 2 slp, den cannt press on the wound some more. kns. so i'm still in a pretty stony mood now.

here's my teeth!! the bottom one was taken out in 2 pieces by the surgeon, so altogether gt 3 pieces. i tell u lor, the sound of the drill is bloody scary. it realli sounds like ur industrial drill lor. yikes!!

im now like on mc all the way until fri, but seriously unless the swellin goes down, i'm not gg 2 step out of the hse lor. so ugly!! den the nurse say usu swellin 3-7 days. freak lah! i hope mine is the 3days kind. hahz.

=lin=

2006-06-27T18:00:00.000+08:00

finally gt time 2 blog. let's c, wad did i do over the wkend? went ecp with the fsc peeps. mf, jen, me, geradine, shahri n david. honestly, we didnt much cept eat n walk arnd. hahaz, walked like siaoz lor. played abit of stupid games with the poker cards, den went cycling in the morning. it's the first time i ever ever rode on a 2 person bike b4. think it's the same 4 most of the rest bahz. quite fun.

dunt haf the grp foto though!! tads with jen n she's like far far away in hk nnow. hope she's havin fun. aniwae, after going home at abt 1pm on sat frm ecp, slept 4 abt 3hrs b4 meetin geraldine 2 go jj concert on sat nite. it's super super cool lor. he's realli damn gd. geraldine keep saying his live no diff frm cd, not even abit off-pitch lor. damn freakin seh. n he's realli super cute. i wldnt say he's gd-lookin, but he juz gt the boy nxt door kind of feel. den he sang alot of songs, yet still didnt manage 2 cover allll the songs tad i like, hahz. can u imagine zhou hua jian concert muz sing how long. jj 4 albums onli leh. hahaz. aniwae, quite glad i went even though it cost a big hole in my bank acct. we sat in the supposed vip area which is the most ex tics place, den juz 5 rows behind the fan club, which had priority bking i think. aniwae, juz wanted 2 say, it was damn cool.

can c our very bad eyebags? still sufferin frm lack of slp at the ecp the nite b4. hahz. budden my eyes now still liddat, coz mon nite stayed up 2 watch england match even though gotta wrk the nxt day. at least england won, hee! nvr waste my efforts 2 stay up n watch. bt quite a quiet match though the goal was pretty enough. =p lookin 4ward 2 their nxt match!

ok tads it lah, those peeps tad want the rest of the photos, do try 2 catch me online.

=lin=

2006-06-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

quite some time since my last post liaoz. wkend was quite hectic, so no time 2 blog until now. went ecp on fri nite, den jj concert on sat nite. hahaz, high rite. shall blog abt it when i figure out how 2 transfer the pics frm my hp 2 the comp. 4 now, juz take a look at lyrics, hahz. currently my fav song now. frm tanya's newest album

Beautiful Love 蔡健雅

看住时间别让它在再流浪
从前我太适应悲伤
你的出现在无意中却深深撼动我
一起走着没说什么心是满足的

这个世界随时都要崩塌
我没有其它的愿望
假如明天将消失了趁现在我爱着
只想记得被你抱着温热的感受

Love's beautiful so beautiful
我失去过更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手不要放手永远守护我

Love's beautiful so beautiful
我很快乐你会了解我
我不会再哭泣是因为我相信
我们勇敢的爱着每秒钟都能证明一生的美丽

这个世界随时都要崩塌
我没有其它的愿望
假如明天将消失了趁现在我爱着
只想记得,被你抱着温热的感受

Love's beautiful so beautiful
我失去过更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手不要放手永远守护我

Love's beautiful so beautiful
我失去过更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手不要放手永远守护我

Love's beautiful so beautiful
我很快乐你会了解我
我不会再哭泣是因为我相信
我们勇敢的爱着每秒钟都能证明一生的美丽
Love's beautiful so beautiful

gt chance muz go listen, it's realli very nice. suppose 2 make u appreciate wad u haf. aniwae, waitin 4 england match 2nite. hope they get thru it. but my eyes already startin 2 feel tired lor. hope i dunt fall aslp halfway thru. muz b the effects of lack of slp the previous 2 nites. hee!

=lin=

2006-06-19T21:49:00.000+08:00

juz some random facts i discovered...

- fisherman's friend is made in england
- giordano is acty the name of a famous pizza parlor in US
- bravissimo, the ice cream brand at tangs n outside far east, has the same name as a lingerie brand in the UK
- the office gets too freakin cold on a rainy day...

can tell how bored i m in the office?

had a great wkend. did alot of things, had alot of fun. pretty busy i think. bt nt much of such chances once sch starts. oh, n i MUZ mention this. wad is my affinity with pple hu r late man. hahz, no offense 2 those readin this, i'm past being angry abt it, nt tad petty. it's juz tad frm last thur on, almost everyone i arranged 2 meet was late. first was pool at downtown east, den was dinner on fri with jing li n shir, den was lunch with hq on sun. hahz. pretty amazing, how they all coincidentally late 4 at least 25mins when meetin me this wk. heng i'm nt the type hu will scream n walk off. hahz, at most nag abit onli. nxt time dunt liddat hor. if nt poor me always hafta wonder arnd whike waitin... =p

did alot of reminiscing this wk, coz met up with jingli n shir n den hq on another day. amazing how everyone's all grown up. n i think our social circle overlap like siao. keep hearin things like so n so is so n so's bf or gf. hahaz. it's nice 2 noe how everyone's been doing since we left tns. think some pple changed alot, but some r still the gd ol' frens tad i always noe them as. seems like being realli smart when u r young, realli doesnt mean u'll continue 2 do well in life after tad. sad fact of life. oh, n i heard joseph is like this super romantic guy now. knew he was the kind hu'll do anyth 4 the gal he likes, bt nvr expected he'll go 2 such extents. hahz, apparently on some anniversary he gt all his scout frens 2 help him lay n unveal sth on the beach, den on his gf bdae, he planned this arnd the whole spore thing that eventually ended with the gals prez or sth along the lines of tad. seriously lah, tads like sth u'll onli c in tv shows lor. hahz, sweet rite.

speakin of which, i'm reminded of eve's sudden craving 2 go mt faber sit cable car. 2dae in the office she keep sayin she wanna go c c. apparently view suppose 2 b very nice. but upon second thots, we 2 go up 4 wad. it's too romantic an activity lor. hahaz. but cld b quite nice juz 4 the experience acty...

went 2 c the dentist on fri. in the end, he say coz all 4 of my wisdom teeth haf grown above my jawbone, it's most advisable 2 take ALL 4 out. freak lah. pain sia. den he advise me 2 take out 2 at one go instead of all 4, otherwise hafta inject 8 needles... siala. now i hafta go thru the pain twice some more. 2 b honest, i'm scared lor. i noe it's like a super minor surgery, n 2 think i'm gonna b a doc nxt time. bt seriously, it feels very different standing frm patient pov. although super minor, but i so old liaoz, nvr walk in2 surgery rm b4 leh. den when dentist tellin me all the risks blah blah tad he HAS to tell me, suddenly feel abit scary, although it's realli juz 2 teeth extraction... guess i'll b drinking porridge 4 the most of nxt wk... hahz.

=lin=

2006-06-17T19:31:00.000+08:00

havin a splittin headache 4 some strange reason or another now. thot lack of slp den will headache? i juz woke up frm afternoon nap lehz. hmmmz... strange.

=lin=

2006-06-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

was doodling on some postcards in the office today. jen took them back frm the canteen when she went 2 get some stuff 2 wake us up, hahz. cant really rmb when companies started usin free postcards 2 advertise their prdts. think it was when i was in pri sch... i rmb how we use 2 scribble stuff n write msges on it 2 encourage each other durin exam times n stuff, or how we pass it arnd durin class time, writing abt the latest gossip n keeping each other frm fallin aslp. oh yar, n all the times with wangek in the lib, writing nonsense juz 2 pass time. miss those times. seems like the older u get, the less often u express ur care n concern 4 ur frens, even if its onli over a small little postcard…

juz submitted my hostel application online. hahaz, kindda pushin it abit late, i noe. honestly still in abit of a dilemma as 2 whether or nt 2 stay there. saves me travellin time. but haiz, haf 2 spend time socialisin, someth tad I’m becoming more n more lazy 2 do. although im startin 2 miss sch life, the vibrancy of it, the never-ending bustle of activity, at the same time, im filled with a lot of uncertainty. hahz, so lazy 2 expand my social circle… can u imagine this is coming frm the very same person, whom 2 years ago refuse 2 choose vj simply coz there’ll b too many familiar faces, coz i wanted a change of envt? hahz, where did that anticipation n energy go?

aniwae, haf reached the pt when im startin 2 look back on this long break n wonder wad haf i been doing. now i wanna do a lot of things!! wanna make this long break a memorable one b4 sch starts instead of realisin that i simply wrked it away at the end of everyth. all 4 the money that suddenly didn’t seem tad impt anymore. (hahz, but den again, i've already used so much of it, cant say it wasn’t of any use, hee!) havin all these weird cravins 2 do particular activities everyday, hahz. quite amusing acty. coz ystd i told jen i suddenly really feel like playin pool. den 2dae durin lunch time, i suddenly really feel like havin a game of basketball!! pool still nt so bad, bball how 2 find so many pple 2 play with me?!? sounds abit looney i noe. wonder wad will it b tmr. hahz.

there’s so may things i wanna do! do u noe there’s a toy museum in Singapore? i wanna c! do u noe there’s a restaurant at Stamford hse tad sells all sorts of authentic jap curry? i wanna try!! when was the last time i went 2 sentosa, or even the zoo! hahz, could b fun, u noe. when was the last time i went cyclin by the beach, or roller-blading or ice-skating? when was the last time i played a game of badminton or volleyball with my squadmates or classmates? when i end my job in july, i am so gonna drag all of u out 2 play, hahz. i hope i realli do it n nt end up slackin arnd, doing nth, when the time comes. hee!

=lin=

2006-06-13T21:24:00.000+08:00

i finally finally changed my hp!! hee!! haven realli gt down 2 figuring how 2 use it yet though, hahz!

life's realli a drag nowadays... i literally pull myself out of bed n drag my feet in2 the office everyday. n time realli CRAWLS in there. haiz. thankfully, it's all gonna b over soon. peeps, muz ask me out 2 haf fun over july kz? i end wrk by then liaoz. muz play like siao b4 hell starts all over again!!

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it's a sad fact of life that everyone has his/ her own share of problems no matter how strong a front they put on in front of others... i juz read ur blog... didnt manage 2 catch u online, (i gt wait hor) so hope u will c dis... sorrie i asked y u were movin without thinkin... sorrie i wasnt too sensitive abt things... hope it didnt make u think of unhappy things. aniwae, i guess everyth happens 4 a reason. n obstacles r wad makes a person stronger. time has washed away the hurt for many others n i hope it will 4 u too... jiayou! ring me up 4 a meal, a movie, a run, anything, anytime u feel like it. hope that as a fren, i will always bring a smile 2 ur face! take care! =p

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=lin=

P.S. dunno if she'll c dis, but jas, gd luck 4 ur exams!!

2006-06-13T21:21:00.000+08:00

saw this on a fren's nick...

'love is giving someone the power to destroy you'

rather apt considering wads been happening arnd me... wad do u guyz feel?

=lin=

2006-06-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

can tell i very bored rite. when haf ur ever seen me blog 4 times in one day?!?! wanted 2 post the lyrics of this song up 4 quite some time liaoz. it's realli nice. one of my fav song 4 now.

《一个像夏天一个像秋天〉〉范玮琪

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我被你掏出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的玄外之音我的有口无心
我离不开 darling 更离不开你

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我被你掏出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的玄外之音我的有口无心
我离不开 darling 更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
还常泼我冷水怕我忘记
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形象保密

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的玄外之音我的有口无心
我离不开 darling 更离不开你

juz watched the netherlands match. they were pretty gd in the first half. like this kind of match. fast paced!! but robben take all the limelight liaoz, hahz. he like one person= whole team lor. c him everywhere. wad happened 2 pple like van nistelrooy? hahz.

=lin=

2006-06-11T22:33:00.000+08:00

had a nice chat with jas juz now. wonder if i will feel the same way as she does if i had chosen to go london... out there, all alone lor. at least she has him lah. hahz. aniwae, tads besides the point already since i've already chosen another path. aniwae, i juz received my reply frm the mha ystd. they haf agreed to waive my 1000 buckz. =p yayz! at least i did wad little i could to lighten my parents load of sendin me thru medical sch. dunno y some pple seem to think that juz because im willin 2 pay the 1000 buckz 2 pursue my dream, they think i'm a rich kid. i'm not lor. hate it when pple look at me eyes that say 'whoah, rich lor, can do anyth she want'. dunno wads wrong with these pple, like i had a choice liddat. honestly, i noe very well tad puttin me thru med sch sure strain family finances one lor. where to suddenly find an extra 17000 a year suddenly, in addition to payin 4 my sis' poly sch fees. even cpf oso dunt haf so much money lor. so i cfrm take loan one. take loan nxt time oso muz pay back. haiz, muz pay very long some more. den paediatrics so difficult 2 get in some more. sigh, suddenly filled with so much apprehension lor. it's gonna b a long long journey...

in a super stone mode today. mebbe it's the pouring rain, i dunno... juz feel very empty, very lost, mind very blank. mebbe it's all the pent up uncertainty regarding loads of things. in the end, i read bk oso read a few pges onli. watch vcd oso watch half heartedly. online oso nt much pple to tok to... haiz. sad life sia.

aniwae, gd job eve! cant believe she gt 90 for the quiz lor. even my own sister gt 70 onli lor. amazing sia. 2 b honest, i noe i will sure cry if u n milly go overseas. sure miss u one lor. but dunt let this affect ur decision. hahz.

=lin=

2006-06-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

i like the feelin of drizzling rain fallin down on me...

refreshin...

=lin=

2006-06-11T21:16:00.000+08:00

Seems like this is what everyone's doing now... was eating my instant noodles (my dinner!!!) in front of the comp, nth to do, so created one. do it if u r free! =p stupid rain lor, kept me in the house the whole day. heng i gt my bk.

Take My Quiz
- on -
QuizYourFriends.com!

=lin=

2006-06-10T23:25:00.000+08:00

it's such a pity that things had to turn out this way. didnt expect it. think it has become realli messy. think in r/ships, there's never a right or wrong, n when a r/ship sours, the blame prob falls on both persons. although frm a gals pov, it's difficult for 2 uds how he can bounce back so fast in2 another r/ship, but often, matters of the heart r nt 4 outsiders to judge... haiz.

juz bought a bk today. called 'perfect match' by jodi picoult. dunno if any of ur heard of her b4. in case ur r thinkin it's a romance novel or sth, judging by the title, it's not! i DUNT read romance novels. it's abt this lawyer n her kid. it's the kind of bks that i read lah. a bit heavy on the struggle btw wads right n wrong in life. abt society n perceptions. along the lines of torey hayden's one child. tell ur more when i'm done with it. =p bought another photo album oso. was packin my fotos today, den realised that the old one's used up. need another one juz to put my genting n taiwan fotos i think. it's that crazy. hahz. mebbe oso coz i usu dunt cram my photos together. hahz. shall spend tmr piecing the rest of the fotos in2 it.

my long long long break's coming to an end soon. less den 2 mths time. still gt alot of things i wanna do!!

1. watch more movies. hahaz. the amt of movies i watch this year is honestly incomparable to j1 i think. to think i'm on long break some more. =p
2. go to the beach. i wanna spend a day in the sun. playin basketball, volleyball, cycling, wadsoever. need to inject some life in2 myself.
3. finish up my comics.
4. read more bks.
5. go shopping.
6. watch more vcds.
7. realli pack up my cupboard.
8. develop all my fotos n acty arrange them in2 my albums lor.
9. do all the mundane mundane stuff that i might nt haf so much free time to do in future.

=lin=

2006-06-08T21:46:00.000+08:00

TAGGED by Becky

Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. dont read the questions before you write, and tag 5 pple to do this survey.

1. Geraldine
2. Jennifer
3. Becky
4. Evelyn
5. Yuyi
6. RQ
7. Eileen
8. Milly
9. Qiuting
10. Shahri
11. David
12. Cairong
13. Jasmine
14. Gawin
15. Manfred
16. Eugene
17. Jaslyn
18. He Qian
19. Weihong
20. Eric

How did you meet 14? [Gawin] hahaz, at the fsc lor. 2years ago...

What would you do if you never met 1? [Geraldine] guess my life wld nvr b the same. come to think of it, there realli was a chance that we might nvr haf met due 2 our birthdates. but i cant imagine that now. hahz. no one to jog with me, crap with me, mug with me. hahaz.

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? [Eric n Qiuting] hahahahaz. this is damn funny. realli cant imagine. aniwae, dunt think eric's qiuting's type of guy. hahz. what wld i do ahz, laugh lor. den give them my blessings. hee!

Did you ever like 19? [Weihong] i guess so, as a fren thru my sec sch years, n i still do now. hope we get a chance 2 meet up sometime. last time i saw him was after nus openhse, which was quite some time ago...

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? [RQ n Jaslyn] er... i dunt think so. both of them r happily taken aniwae. hee! =p

Describe 3. [Becky] a realli bubbly gal. a super gd fren who has stood by me all these years no matter how low i get. thnx gal!! can always count on her to make my day when i need it. =p

Do you think 8 is attractive? [Milly] think so. she gt a lot of tao hua yun one. hahaz. very cute gal lah. milly treasure hor. first time i say u cute, nt act cute! hahz!

Tell me something about 7. [Eileen] one of my closest frens in jc. realli hyper most of the time. gt contagious laughter! nvr fail to cheer up at the sight of her! =p

Do you know any of 12's family? [Cairong] er, nopeZ!

What's 8's favourite? [Milly] favourite what? man ah? hahaz, zhang dong jian!!

What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you? [David] hmmmz, i wldnt noe. shocked??? 4 now, he's a realli nice fren though. hahz.

What language does 15 speak? [Manfred] english and chinese. dunno if he noes anyth else. muz ask jen nxt time. hahz.

Who is 9 going out with? [Qiuting] hahaz, no one i think. otherwise, we'll kill her. hahaz, 4 nt tellin us.

How old is 16 now? [Eugene] 21 years old!!

When was the last time you talked to 13? [Jasmine] hmmmzz, 2days ago? over sms. hahaz.

Who's 2 favourite band/singer? [Jennifer] nt sure leh, jay chou i think... either that or she doesnt haf one. i hope... hahz.

Would you date 4? [Evelyn] think we always go on dates wad. no meh. hahaz.

Would you date 7? [Eileen] another one that i often go on dates with oso. hahz, along with the other gals in class.

Is 15 single? [Manfred] hahz, nope. of coz nt!!

What's 10's last name? [Shahri] er gosh, this muz b the hardest question... honestly, i dunno, issit ur dad's name? is tad considered a last name?

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11? [David] as of now, cant imagine it. hahaz. in serious frenship bahz. hee! =p

What school does 3 go to? [Becky] some uni in canada. nt realli sure wads the name though, west sth sth sth... sorrie!

Where does 6 live? [RQ] somewhere along tanjong rhu...

Whats your favourite thing about 5? [Yuyi] her determination n wry sense of humour. hahz! haven seen her in a real long time though!!

I tag Geraldine, Chyork, Yehlin, David and Jennifer. Do it if ur r free bahz! =p

=lin=

2006-06-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

alot of thots, alot of feelins, loads of reflection, all swirling arnd in my head now. dunno how 2 pen them down. took me quite long to finish up the TAG, so now abit too late, nt realli in the rite state of mind 2 express myself choherently. esp not abt the matter's i want to tok abt... startin 2 feel abit stressed, alot of things 2 settle, n alot of things to think abt... mebbe i'll tok more abt it tmr...

quite excited abt fri's dinner. think like everyone's turnin up. full strength sia. quite rare. to a certain extent, it's sorta like a conclusion to triple e bahz, in case all of us realli leave in the few mths to come. muz take lotsa lotsa fotos. will realli miss all the fun n stupid times tad we have had when the time comes...

that's all 4 now...

=lin=

2006-06-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

TAGGED by geraldine

AWESOME PEOPLE I WOULD WANT TO MEET

1. hmmmz, nt sure leh, that SPECIAL someone? hahaz!

2. dunno if this counts, meet up with my pri sch frens!! quite some time since i last saw them. wld b nice 2 c how's everyone doing.

3. my paternal grandfather who died when i was realli young. apparently he pampered me like crazy. n my likes very similar 2 him. hahz.

4. Mayday? aiyoh dunno lah. very difficult leh!!

THINGS I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT

1. my handphone?

2. my computer/ the internet

3. the tv/ my vcds

4. chocolates

5. water!! (n perhaps air too!)

I WISH I COULD

1. become a paediatrician

2. tour the world

3. get a chance to try my hands at becoming a volunteer doc nxt time. honest! always thot they r super wei da. hahz.

4. grow taller

5. lose some weight?

I WANT

1. to succeed in life.

2. to not haf regrets.

3. a new hp

4. to always haf my frens by my side... i noe it's difficult as u grow older... it's a wish, nevertheless.

5. everyone to be happy n healthy

SONGS I THINK ARE AWESOME

1. aiyoh, how 2 choose?!?! i listen 2 so many songs!! currently at the top of my list is fanfan's new song, yi ge xiang xia tian, yi ge xiang qiu tian.

2. intuition, by soler

3. sheng bian, in the 'it started with a kiss' ost

4. mayday's songs

5. jj lin's songs, hahz. this 2 r currently my fav singer/band!! hee! =p

HOW I SEE MYSELF IN 10 YEARS

1. hopefully a full fledged paediartician by then.

2. hopefully successful.

3. hopefully b able to make a diff 2 my patients' lives... =p

4. hopefully found that someone that makes a diff in my life.

RANDOM FACTS

1. i picked up roller blading n ice skating since young.

2. i realli wanna learn archery n tennis.

3. i'm 19 this year.

4. i'm a girl.

5. i think i'm a pretty loud person. hahz. =p

MISCONCEPTIONS

1. i'm a very fierce person.

2. i'm unfriendly? some pple say i gt dao look...

3. i come frm a gals sch. truth is, i've nvr been to a gals sch. hahz.

4. i'm very studious. acty i dun think so. i believe in wrkin hard n playin hard!! i can b quite crazy when i start playin. n i haf skipped lectures/ pon sch b4 4 no reason. hahz.

5. i dunt haf probs... nt true hor!! everyone has issues. juz coz i'm optimistic abt stuff doesnt mean i dunt worry abt them!! hahz, i juz dunt show it tads all!!

I TAG

1. Becky

2. Eric

3. Jennifer

4. He Qian

5. TNS Gals

=lin=

2006-06-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

read this article in straits times life ystd while stoning in btw wrk. hahz, juz wonder how true the article acty is. wonder how many guyz realli think the same way. aniwae, the article is titled: Alpha Women are Darn Sexy. interesting article...

excerpts from it:

"i am a big fan of the alpha female. and after speaking to friends, i realise i am not alone... i think anyone who shows triats such as confidence, leadership qualities, intelligence and determination can be considered leader of her pack (alpha female)"

"when i asked some of my friends, most agreed that, looks being equal, an alpha female would truimph over her average peer every time. it's the confidence that is the most attractive..."

"i have met many women who are at the top of their game in finance, politics, sports and theatre. and often, i find their success makes them even more appealing as individuals, as their life experiences add depth to their personalities."

"men are more open to the idea of women who are their equals or superiors, and are not that hung up anymore on having to be the providers."

i wonder how much these apply to the general male population here. guyz, leave a tag if u haf any comments abt this, hahz.

but some reason or another, i still feel that wad the author wrote still does not apply to most of the guyz in singapore. as mentioned by this female in the article, "gender stereotypes aside, sometimes intelligent women just simply overwhelm men. ego is a big factor and i think most guys cant deal with a woman who knows or earns more than they do." somehow, i think this is more true, hee. tell me if im wrong.

=lin=

P.S. would i b considered an alpha female?

2006-06-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

world cup coming!!! so excited. ystd gt the pull out guide in straits times. wonder if anione is interested in gg 2 one of the clubs to watch one of the matches. will b so high rite, the atmosphere n the crowd!! hahaz. think 4 the rest of the mth, i will b panda at wrk liaoz. esp when haf england matches the nite b4. hee! =p

=lin=

2006-06-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

went kite-flyin with g & j, m & j today. freak lah, dunno y me n geraldine go oso. freakin extra. think the activity in itself is too lang man already. hahz, shld haf learnt frm cr, stay at home watch vcd. at first thot of cr n david gg den nt so bad, still gt 4 of us, in the end left me n geraldine, so we entertain ourself lor. acty kite-flyin is nt that bad an idea, juz tad nxt time if nt big big grp dunt ask me hor. oh, n me n geraldine came to this conclusion, if the outing, single pple nt more den attached one rite, oso no need ask us, hahz. feel stupid lor. aniwae, they happy can liaoz lah. cant imagine if geraldine had crazily agreed to go watch xmen with them, hahz, pengz!! the feelin is u nt there, u wunt noe one lor. hahaz.

in the end, my highlight of the day is daytona at the arcade. so long nvr play lioaz, suddenly seem so fun lor. hahaz. played 3times altogether. think the initial d one realli damn nice. its tougher, but feel more shuang. aniwae, eventually me n mok left them there to eat their marina steamboat den we went back gd ol' tamp eat hans. hahz. chit chat abit den end up shoppin again. shit lah, the gss is killin my wallet as well as my bank acct. cant even bear to calculate. n its nt like some of things i bought r even on sale lor. it's the shopping bug. hahaz. muz ctrl. still wanna buy my jacket n birks n hp. haiz. no money, how? thinkin of gg to topshop to buy the skirt durin one of their midnite sales. hahz, high lor, the midnite sales, so many pple at marina square at 11plus ystd sia. den the giordano person screaming like mad lor. even nike on sale leh, can u imagine? n these r the shops that r hardly ever on sale lor. hahz, okay, im startin to sound crazy. muz spare some thot 4 my wallet, practice self ctrl!! =p

=lin=

2006-06-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

im suddenly feelin very overwhelmed... very filled with gloom. i dunno..., it's juz very saddening to suddenly realise how emotional fragile or how stressed n unhappy some of ur frens can be under the cheerful facade that they put on in front of others. suddenly feel so useless. it's as if they dunt feel rite in influencing ur feelins by showing theirs... im kindda rambling, but it's abit tough to put wad i feel un2 words. i realli want to help, but somehow i guess its not realli up to me if they dunt even wanna show me they haf probs... i've been thru tough times b4 too. i noe how it feels to haf to put on a front in front of others, i noe wad it feels to b suddenly cautious of urself, i noe wad it feels 2 need all the support that u can get, that shoulder to cry on... mebbe thats y it realli upsets me to realise a fren is in the position... =(

was tokkin alot 2 evelyn todae. tokkin abt all the stuff that happened over the 2 years in jc... so many misunderstandings, so many politics, so many... i dunno. somehow alot of pple always feel that the sch is a protected environment... in some schs, mebbe. but i wonder if its juz me, but i seriously feel that the better the sch, the smarter the pple there, the higher they climb, the more u c pple for wad they r. it's juz a mini reflection of the society on the whole. the fight for credit, for power... in lib exco, in the class, in pw, blah blah. it's sad tad the supposed elite of the ctry turns out this way, but it's true... i been thru huge ups n downs over these 2 years, seen the best n worst of pple, which realli opened up my eyes n made me grow up... but i guess nobody realli knew wad was happening other den a few close frens, n even den i nvr cried in front of them... there was even less of a chance that i wld haf shown anyth to my parents... tads my personality, hahz. stubborn? i dunno. i was brought up as a veri independent child, mebbe tads y i always felt it was my resposibility to solve my problems. or perhaps its the strongheadedness in me, the 'im supposed to b strong, so i shall nt fall' kind of mentality. which i guess is oso the reason y when i do break down n cry, its hard to stop, hahz. aniwae, the thing is, like evelyn said, i'm quite glad that things turned out the way it did, otherwise i might haf brought along with me a lot of regrets n perhaps hatred for things n pple along with me frm jc...

i juz read jacq's blog... she said she's quitting triple e. i realli think it's a pity. y did things turn out this way... the start pt of the entire thing seemed realli harmless n innocent. a simple r/ship... turned this way. i think she's a gd teacher, she realli puts her heart into teachin her kids, perhaps more so den ani of us there. it's honestly a pity if she leaves. some more, with so many of us leavin, i cant even bear to imagine wad will happen to triple e. i'm starting to worry... i noe it sounds selfish to get her 2 stay simply coz the rest r leavin, esp if the place realli bring her painful n unhappy memories, but it i kindda feel that if she realli likes wad she do there, mebbe she shld stay. use the happy times to wash away memories of the unhappy ones...

haiz, it's when i c situations liddat that makes me feel that mebbe singlehood is beta after all. mebbe it's coz i haven met someone hu makes me wanna risk all the unhappiness n step in2 a rship... im the kind that will think of the breakup even before the being together starts. hahz, paranoid? mebbe. i've said no a few times b4, everytime someone gets too close, i start to push them away. scared? i dunno... the last time i fell 4 someone, i fell hard. it wasnt easy to snap out of it i think. mebbe tads y. it's nt that i dowan a shoulder to lean on, it's nt that i dunt need someone there when im down n out, it's juz that i dowan the possibility of the pain n heartbreak... i think im either mad or too idealistic. perhaps for now, frens r truly enough... where's that someone that will make me lose my sense of logic again...

=lin=

P.S. im so so so glad that i haf frens like mok, jen, eve n gang, n nt 2 4gt, becca n rq, whose always there no matter wad happens... =p

2006-05-29T22:44:00.000+08:00

today's the first time i acty sat down properly n watched two thirds of an episode of superband, hahz. im freakin impressed with juz-b lah. their chinese is even more accurate den some chinese i noe even though their entire grp is made up of malay guyz. amazing sia. n their voices r gd lor. nt the first time i saw their performance, but nvr fails to impress me each time. listening to chinese songs is one thing, but noeing how to sing them in proper chinese is another lor. they muz haf put in alot of hard wrk!!

went jogging juz now with geradline, jen, david n rebecca. siaoz lah, keep askin us run with them, one frm afs, one frm track n field. fast sia, but gd wrk out lah, use so much energy. come more today so warm lor.

by the way, i haf a black eye, hahaz. or sth like a black eye. coz i slept with my specs on ystd nite den poke the edge of my eye for the whole nite. so in the morning wake up gt blue black, look like kena punched. hahaz. muz haf been super tired to be able to slp thru the nite liddat. painful sia, whenever i blink or use the muscles arnd the eye den feel abit pain. can u imagine those pple hu realli kena punched, sure very pain one lor. hahaz, so peeps, beta nt get in2 fights kz. =p

=lin=

2006-05-28T23:27:00.000+08:00

it's happening again. dunno y everytime during the aftermath of a disaster n i watch the news, always feel as though the countries r trying to outdo each other in offering help to the ctry in need. im nt sayin they shldnt b giving all the help they can, but when i listen to the news, cant help but feel that it's all such a childish competition to c hu can give the most money, n therefore, hu has the greatest influence in the global arena. like wth. the tsunami event was like that, this time the earthquake oso liddat. apparently, according to some reports i read during the time when the tsunami happened, whether some of these money wld realli appear remains questionable, while others may nvr ever reach those hu realli need them. y nt spend more time n effort in ensuring that help reaches those in need instead of simply pledging larger n larger sums to the disaster zone one after another...

=lin=

2006-05-28T13:20:00.000+08:00

dunno whether to laugh or wad, ystd my whole day surrounded by same topic sia. hahaz, in the morning at the fsc picnic, in the evening at my class outing, in the nite in squad convo... amusing sia. whole world tokkin abt hu n hu attach lah, when gt married lah, blah blah blah. 人生大事。damn funny. dunno whether it's sad or wad, i cant rmb when's the last time someone 'moved' my heart, 已经很久没有心动的感觉了。。。 think it was in j1 and it's nt even someone i knew frm jc, hahz. can't rmb wad it feels like to be in love; to fall heads over heels 4 someone liaoz. sounds sad rite, but acty im okay with it lah. it's juz that llike geraldine puts it, there's the possibility of findin urself increasingly alone as all ur frens plunge into rships... hahz. true.

mebbe im picky den. hahz. to me, feelins very impt. unless i realli feel a strong sth, otherwise no matter how comfortable i m with the person, or how gd frens we r, i wunt budge a step further. a bit stubborn i guess. n abit perfectionist. but tads me... =p but den again, nt realli lah, my requirements nt high wad. i dunt mind pple's education standards, family backgrnd, blah, blah, all these i dunt care. i nvr thot that academic achievements were a way to measure a person's worth. it's what's in the person's mind and heart that's most impt, no?

u noe, some time back i had this realli wild dream of marrying a caucasian or someone with some realli exotic nationality in future, hahaz, coz eurasian babies super cute! ok lah, it's damn dumb, i was young den. but it's true, eurasian babies r the cutest, or rather most mixed blood babies r realli cute. saw so many when i wrked at great world. hahz, mebbe that's y i so attracted to go london rite. jkin lah. =p

=lin=

2006-05-28T00:19:00.000+08:00

by the way, 4gt to mention juz now, im hep b negative. nth to worry abt liaoz. =p

=lin=

2006-05-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

Just Some Random Thots

wonder if anyone else notices... dunno y the seats on buses where 4 pple can seat n face each other, sometimes they r green n sometimes not...

i wonder wad gayle wrote in her blog that caught a minister's attebtion or sth... she's gonna b featured in tmr's sunday times... interesting! (btw, she was my junior in dhs)

feeling strangely high now, though im suffering frm lack of slp... n i haf tuition at 9am tmr morning...

i think my frens still noe me best. grinz! =p

mok's rite, today's prob the last major event we're all organising together... sighz... abit bu she... dunno how to put it lah. 2 years ago, we stepped in there thinkin we were juz there to do cip. a cip there's mebbe more meaningful than some others they offer in sch, but that's all. guess it's fate. not everyone who volunteers there stick arnd 4 so long. guess we all managed to click, so here we r, 3 years down the road, still putting in our efforts n trying our best for the kids together. some even find their other halves there. so nan de rite. realli treasure this special grp of mates. realli had alot of fun n crazy times with them lor. hope pple still hang out often after we move to the hostel n the guyz go ns... muz hor...

still got lots to say, but its all in bits n pieces, super random, mebbe i'll try 2 piece them together tmr...

=lin=

2006-05-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

was watching the 9pm show on channel 8 juz time. been stime since i last watched it. aniwae, nt sure how many of u out there watch this show but in 2dae's episode, ruoqi (acted by julian hee) suddenly lost all that he had overnight. his dad died of heart attack, den when his mum n gf rushed down to c him on a car, they met with an accident. his mum died n his gf is in a coma. suddenly dawned on me that sthing liddat realli cld happen to anione when u least expect it. cant imagine wad it wld b like. i think i will collapse lor, kinship, love... brrr... brings goosebumps juz thinkin abt it. hope nth like this happens to anione arnd me.

=lin=

p.s. i m now suddenly very worried that i have hep b. beta nt think so much. okay, im paranoid, but i cant help it, esp after i juz excitedly filled up all my forms to take med... hope nth goes wrong.

2006-05-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

<<没有人可以叫你宝贝>> 元气

成群的蝴蝶在飞在我心里只有你最美
你被微微风吹起的发尾不只是让人陶醉
你的妩媚你的玫瑰美的让人陶醉
谁能体会最甜蜜的花蕊带给人的感觉
可是没有人可以只有我可以大声地叫你宝贝
你在我心里深处的地位就像一万个翡翠
baby 他们不可以只有我可以努力的叫你宝贝
我陪你干杯我给你安慰我是你宝贝

it's been a long time since i last surfed the class blog, den when i visited it today, was coincidentally playin this song on wmp. make me miss my sch life so much. feel like gg back hc walk walk some day, esp eric's blog entry... this song quit fits the mood with which to view that blog post =p

=lin=

2006-05-22T10:59:00.000+08:00

cant believe it took me 2 days to come here n blog abt it... but den again, i'm nt realli one hu blogs often. too lazy... hahaz. aniwae, yupz, my dream came true. abit dunno how 2 describe my feelings when i knew... very complicated... hahz. it's super roller coaster sia. barely 12 hrs after i was lamenting to shahri n jacq abt nt knowing if i'll get in, i chcked my status online and gt the result that i wanted. when qiuting told me on fri nite that can chck the nxt morning online, can hardly fall aslp that nite lor. den nxt morning when i woke up, first thing i did was switch on the computer n go online. honestly, i haven even wash my face n brush my teeth yet lor. hahaz. tad was how ganjiong i was. i dunno chck the webbie how many times to make sure it was my name written there lor. even resorted to log out den log in again to confirm b4 i went to tell my mum. okay, i admit, i cried when reality sunk in. hahz, dunno how 2 explain the feeling oso, think onli those hu want 2 get in2 med, dentistry, law that kind den will uds bahz. it's how badly u want it... some more b4 i chck super roller coaster lor. the moment i came online, lee kai told me he didnt get it, den my lil confidence shrunk by half, den later i cannt find my pin number, nearly turn my table upside down lor. realised alot of pple i thot will get in didnt in the end. so thankful that immediately went to huan shen the nxt day lor. =p now i oso dunno hu i noe will b my classmates... aniwae, congrats to qiuting 4 getting in2 dentistry as well!! =p

i kindda uds her dilemma bahz. no matter how much u want sth, no matter how much u feel tad thats the career path, when faced with such an inviting option, it's nt easy not to be moved. i went thru it as well... even though u look at how happy i m now 2 gain admission in2 med, but when mha offered me the scholarship, i once considered giving up med to study overseas. i realli desire takin time off frm the lifestyle in spore, learning to live by myself overseas, gaining exposure n seeing things frm another pov. furthermore, the lack of a need to worry abt finances is also very tempting. some more, there's always this, how shld i put it, more materialistic n showy side of me that keeps reminding me of how glam it is to b a govt scholar n how my career path in future will prob b smoother den most pple. a degree frm internationally recognised LSE will b more den sufficient to secure my future, n i dunt even hafta slog for 5 years for it... sounds super inviting rite? it's difficult not to be moved, but i guess at the end of the day, it's realli down to what kind of life u want in future, what kind of a role do u envision urself to b playin in the society in future. once u think it thru n firmly decide wad u want, den u prob wunt haf regrets in future. tads y even though now i muz pay the mha 1000 buckz, i mus take on a huge study loan frm the bank, i giving up my chance to experience life in london, no more chance of watchin epl matches life, no making frens n being classmates with pple frm all over the world, but i'm contented. life's abt making choices, u gain some, u lose some. i'm now one more step closer to my dream of becoming a paediatrician n i'm happy the way things turned out. =p

=lin=

p.s. thnx eugene, shahri 4 offerin ur frens help, thnx auntie norin 4 ur letter of recommendation, thnx everyone else for all your encouragement n confidence in me!! =p

2006-05-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

spent 2 hrs tokkin to geraldine on thur nite... tokkin abt whether ntu is beta or nus beta. hahz. seems like both biz schs has its pros n cons, its strenghts n weaknesses. dunno leh, i guess alot of times we become realli swayed by general perceptions. the older generation, which generally makes up the management now, still seem to feel that nus beta den ntu. but i asked arnd ystd. asked my classmates n stuff, somehow they all quite unanimously feel that in terms of biz sch, they get the impression that ntu is beta. so i guess, if i was in mok's shoes, i'll probably juz end up choosing ntu. =p it's kindda stupid how sometimes such impt decisions in one's life becomes dependent on how the general public will view u in future... sorta of restrict ur ability to excercise ur freedom of choice in some sense. it's something like the fass i think. which is even dumber, cos the onli reason y nus ranks so high internationally is coz its fass is highly recognised. yet the employers here dunt seem to see them as an asset. this in turn prevents the fass frm attracting the best n the brightest, n then it ends up in a vicious cycle... such a pity, coz i think students who excel in arts n social sciences tend to haf very strong analytical skills as well as eq. dunno lah, it's juz a feelin i get...

which den brings me back to my own future... haiz... nxt wk is crucial sia... muz force myself nt to think so much abt it. but i juz saw robin's nick:"will i get to disrupt..." sigh, guess all those hu want to get into med sch wants it as much as i do.

met becky n rq on wed. coincidentally met gracie n chengz as well. so we ended up having dinner together at kenny rogers. oh yar now kenny rogers is nt self service liaoz, at least the new one at marina isnt. the food is still as nice as ever. aniwae, chatted 4 super long over dinner, think like half the tao nan geppers r flyin liddat. amazing sia. gracie, chengz n beckz r all flyin as well. suddenly felt so grown up there n then lor. it's like everyone's movin onto their path in life. all going places n chieving their respective goals... so different frm when we first knew each other lor. acty i realli value the chance to study overseas, coz i think nt onli makes u independent n grow up, bt also makes u appreciate ur family n frens alot more. but den i wldnt give up my chance to become a doctor 4 that. i dunt want it that much. though i didnt feel like this like say mebbe 2 months ago. frankly speakin, i was realli realli tempted by the mha offer. its like no need to spend a single cent. pple pay u 2 study, n in such a wonderful place. london leh, so shuang. get a chance to experience a whole different kind of lifestyle for 3 years. den can fly here, fly there, c things, visit frens, hahz, nubbad rite. den come back as a scholar. sounds so seh some more. that was this part of my brain tad was simply urging me to juz 4get abt med n get myself to england. but i guess, after careful thot, what i realli want is to still become the paediatrician that i want to be. i do realli hope i get in at this stage...

dunt feel like growing up... suddenly bogged down by so many decisions to make, so many consequences to bear. it's no fun at all lor. haiz. been having so many conversations abt the future and our aspirations, with various grps of pple... feel so tired juz thinkin abt the future now lor. y does life have to b like this... haiz. sad. 不想长大！！

=lin=

2006-05-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

"Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)" Craig David

For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late againI made you mad and dinners thrown in
(the bin)
But why are you making this thing drag on so long
(I wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly game
(silly games)
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to meI don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state
(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look awayI can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to meI don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

2006-05-07T21:26:00.000+08:00

it's realli pretty amazing how long it took me to post sth here. if u look at the date of my previous post, which was the day i set up this blog, its 3weeks ago. n i onli typed sth there so that i can c the template... hahz. i muz either b one lazy or realli busy person sia. its probably the former.

alot's happening at this pt of my life now, nt juz me, but the frens arnd me as well... frens with r/ship problems, frens hu haf juz gotten in2 a r/ship, frens deciding to go aust to do med, frens hu r already preparing 4 their mugging life overseas, frens hu r tryin to decide whether which course to take, which sch to go to. it's the time of the life where everyone's makin choices, choices tad affect the rest of their life... it's stressful i think. 4 me, everything's hanging on a thin thread. the thread that holds my dream to become a doctor. it's realli dicturbing at times when pple arnd u r discussing wad they shld do with their future, n i suddenly realise with a sinkin feelin that my future's nt realli 4 me to decide at this pt in time... haiz... the nxt 2 wks will b the crucial pt in the rest of my life. it decides wad my future holds 4 me. so far i've hardly been able to get thru a day without thinkin abt how much i want 2 get in2 med sch at least once. it's crazy, bt like i said, its sth tads nt 4 me to decide animore. hahz, guess tads y i didnt feel like gg home that day after my interview. didnt like the sense of finality abt it. it's as if the rest of my life was decided n finalised on that day... haiz, shld nt think so much abt it, i will 越陷越深。

finally gt some excercise 2dae, after like 2 wks lor. went cycling at pasir ris beach... i like cycling n the beach, always make me feel like im nt in singapore. hahz. dunno y oso. think coz singapore too urbanised, so like the feel of seeing the sea n the sand instead of buildings. =p been busy the previous coz of fsc meetins n numerous tuition sessions coz the kid is having his mid-years soon. as a result, there went my resolution to go running after wrk. muz realli keep my own promise nxt wk. thinkin of stoppin tuition after his mid-years, gettin realli sian of it. seriously, the onli thing that's keepin me gg is the money, so 没有良心 rite? hahz. coz its like either i go med sch which will b realli busi or i go london which means i wunt b in spore. den its like if i tell him stop in sep den very bad coz nearin his final exams. dunno leh, abit cant stand pple hu dunt wanna wrk hard themselves. its like i can teach u every wk. can think if questions n wrkshts 4 u 2 do. bt wads the pt if u r nt gg 2 take the effort to do ur part n rmb ur wrk well. lidddat no pt every wk i go there n nag at u 2 memo ur formulas, ur units, ur definitions... all these is need to make effort urself one, nt i can memo 4 him one. abit 看不下去， or dunno its 看不过去。 after all his parents spend money every mth 2 employ me, so he shld at least make the effort rite...

becky's bdae is a few days away. tryin to think of a way to make it special. after all she's gg to canada soon, i wunt get 2 celebrate it with her 4 the nxt 3 years at least. hope everyth goes well 4 her there.

=lin=

2006-04-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

hi, test test.